2012: The Physical vs Spirituality, is there a war going on ?

I have been living on and off the ‘redefine Money’ thread, as I have been actively working on closing the Gap between myself and Equal Money and I have now bridged most points  quite efficiently as me, and I enjoy the sharing of this Wonderful New Unifying Concept to people who have not yet come in touch with it.

One thing that has ben happening consistently on the FB threads is the contribution of the spiritual groups, they are fiercely opposed, which is mind-boggling to say the least, for some reasons they fail to see Money as Equality fit quite comfortably  into all their well nurtured beliefs Goodness, helping each others, brothers and sisters, we are Love, the two things just don’t compute satisfactorily.

I want to look at my own experience with the Spirituality movement and how I embraced it for many years and why, as a way to see for myself my own motivations and what were my fears that led me to want and desire to believe in the invisible, discarding even the idea of looking at the physical where there was no effort to be made, nothing to believe, where it was enough to just open my eyes and look.

It started with looking for reasons for this existence, obviously I was not born rich, even though for the living standards of the time in Italy we were well off, my mum with her overtime money at one point even had enough to buy 3 Black and white TVs, we kept one, one went to my great-grandmother and one for my school. I felt very important when the nuns thanked me publicly for what my mum had done, and very proud, I was about to learn that Money could give me value and recognition and I enjoyed the feeling of being the vicarious giver and the acknowledgement that went with it.

As I grew up I realized that there was Inequality in the way people lived, even within my own family, my grandmother for the time we lived in was rich, had a nice big apartment with 2 bathrooms and a huge living room while we lived with my mum in the subsidized government housing. I envied the life my grandparents lived, the no limit life that Money can grant you, the freedom to go to the supermarket and not have a limited amount of money to spend, I liked the splurging, the luxury, the going out to eat at restaurants where I could order as many Cokes as I wanted, until I burst with gas and food.

I even looked down at my mum in contempt, I understood that Money=Value and since she had less, she had obviously less value, not only in my perception of course, this was her perception of herself but as a system I took it on board and made it mine.

My participation in and as the money System grew as I understood that Money buys you privileges, freedom, the ability to be mobile, to have choices, Money was clearly the God of this world, but on the outside I married the secretive attitude we hold about Money, we all know what it is for each one of us, yet nobody talks about it, owns up to it, instead we play it down, we say I don’t care about Money, we want to be noble, above it, beyond it because the fear that we will never ever have it, or never have enough is just too great to be faced.

I recall 3 movies that took on this point quite clearly, one was Indecent Proposal, where a woman in a couple is offered 1 million to have sex with R. Redford and they decide together with the husband to accept, and it destroys them, so this point was morality for sale, another more recent called The Box, where a black box is delivered to a very ordinary, well off, educated American family in the 60′ and they were told that they would have 1 million if they pressed the button on the black box, they were told as well that someone would have to die, but they did not know this person and had never or will never know who he/she was. This movie covered the point of morality, humanity and Life for sale. Did they press the button ? Watch the movie 🙂 But I am sure anyone can guess quite accurately.

The third movie was an Italian movie, very interesting, a man is unemployed and on a social grant for being an invalid, when his social grants are suspended he talks with the grant inspector and tells him, please don’t suspend my grant, yes I faked my invalidity but in a way it’s real, I was a communist and believed in communism for over 20 years until one day I woke up and realized the world I live in, my belief system collapsed, hence I am now invalid, no longer fit for society, so I never really lied you see, if you don’t support me you may be the one that turns me into a criminal, what choices does a mind invalid such as me have left ? But the system doesn’t stand by him and instead the inspector gives him a long speech about Honesty and what it means to be an Honest man, like himself. 8 Years later the Inspector starts to receive anonymous monthly envelopes with Money, big sums, like 20000 euros per month, and it goes on for 10 months. After 10 months the man to whom he had decided to suspend the social grants turns up, he tells him he was the sender of the money, he tells him he is just sharing his wealth and that it was thank to him that he turned into an efficient criminal, he was into selling drugs to children, prostitution of minors, robbing old women, and he had become as ruthless as the criminal life demands, all thanks to him, now it was sharing time. The Inspector said he had not touched a penny since he did not know where the money was coming from, the man told him he still owed him 800000 euro to get to 1 million of euros which was his rightful 10% of the ill earned wealth. The Inspector refused, the wife of the inspector asks to talk to him in private and threatens to leave if he doesn’t take the money, and so, he accepts, for the sake of the peace of the family. Only later the man tells him he had won the money betting every week for 10 years on the Inspector phone number, until the numbers came out, he won 10 million and wanted to give him 10%, but he wanted to show him that he was not as honest as he thought, nobody is, Money has an outwordly allure, we know what Money is connected to and what it could do for us, freedom, choices, no more fears for the future, possibility to share with others having enough for oneself, education for children, healthcare, it’s hard to say NO.

So, at an unconscious level that we play out in movies to show each other that we are just as dishonest as anyone else, as ready to sell out as anyone else, we all know, we KNOW we would make the same choices, Money or God, Money or Love, Money or Spirituality ? No matter what we think about ourselves somewhere inside of us we know what we would choose, Money is a sure bet, it can buy the ‘love’ of this world, meaning company and sex, with Money who needs God, being God just the insurance policy for the poor that have nothing else and Spirituality ? Come on, if you had all the Money in the world, would you mind fuck yourself into oblivion or would you take the round the world cruise, the trip you always wanted, go shopping for a house renovation, you would be the busy body into all the latest trends, the value point was never changed, just suppressed and it would be unleashed into spending frenzies updating your desires as days go by from the new spending power platform.

So Spirituality/God is the best compensation tool for the poor, the second price that has a ‘value’ on the value market, the rich are clever, they accepted to give value to spirituality/God as a noble thing, while they fuck off and enjoy the  Money. There are as well the ones that have too much to live peacefully, guilt and shame kill them but fear prevents them from sharing, so they are stuck between a rock and a hard place and that is the ideal spot for meditation, to quiet the mind, to stop the guilt and shame without having to give up or sharing the lot. And a great place to become Spiritual as a justification of WHY we don’t need to share or care without feeling guilty, it’s unrequired since all it’s just an illusion, we are energy in movement, information and patterns floating in space, All One already. I have been in both places myself.

For those that don’t have access to what they desired and for those that fear and are shocked by this reality we can say Spirituality is just another coping mechanism, a way to justify why the world is as it is, because if we dig back in time, we all have been asking ourselves this question, having been products of an abusive system that may have more or less touched us, scarred us and scared us, we know of the abuse that is going on, we have questioned it and when we came out of the questioning as “Spiritual Ones’ we have just simply, by default, given up substance and our ability to make any substantial change to the world system as me,  reality as me, One and Equal, as myself being the abused and abuser in a system that is not designed in benevolence, no matter how hard we try to believe it, a thin line of doubt will always run through our beliefs, what if this was all bullshit ? The question stays alive and kicking.

So when we start to expose the Equal Money system for what it is, an Equalizing tool to level the playfield for All,  exposing the hidden suppressed desire or guilt and shame of the Spiritual Ones, the fears and the resolve of never going back to look in self honesty at the point of Money and how we have already sold out long ago, resistance comes up. I am almost sure that many of them are not aware of what is the exact point they are yet unable to reconcile, it’s buried deep and the digging is not desirable not even for What is Best for All, let sleeping dog lie.

Those that don’t have enough probably fear of even “hoping” that a change may indeed be possible, they have worked so hard at accepting the mediocrity of their penniless reality that they would have to redefine reality by looking at their hidden fears again and expose them to themselves and that is bloody scary, yes they had been preaching Equality of some sort all their life, while they battled and suppressed their desires for ‘more’, their hopes to be finally one day ‘more Equal’ having accepted their Equal – Minus place in the world system as ‘the way things are’.  Wouldn’t then a system of Equal giving, a for-giving system be the absolute match to their belief system ? The physical representation lived in the practical of what spirituality is all about ?
The recognition of One Common essence, Life, running through all of us as Breath, One and Equal  and therefore the Equal right to sharing what the planet is giving for All ?

Instead This is not happening, consistently, I should add.  The reason is pretty clear, if I was never an Equal to start with, pretending to be more because I was not materialistic while all the while I suppressed my own self judgement of inferiority as a non achiever and a loser, I cannot conceive Equality as me because I was never an Equal to start with, I was just deluding myself inside a polarity between have and have-nots that made me suffer and I managed to leave behind.

Ultimately, that leads to Spirituality, there is a fear of death, the looking for an answer, a purpose, a reason to make sense of this Life experience, there must be a sense, what is the reason, why are we here ? And off we go with the stories, energy, consciousness, spirit, the afterlife, it’s just a ride, passing through, life is but the batting of eyelids, a moment in eternity and the list goes on infinitely to diminish the physical experience and make it unsubstantial. We survive embracing heavenly gossips and hear say of the ones that say they can see beyond the veil and either wrote or spoke about it, we failed to notice that none of them is looking beyond the same veil, because no afterlife report is equal to another one, we discount such earthly points like “lack of common sense” given that reporting should be Equal from whichever angle you look at something but just considering an added perspective, and not a complete reversal of stories, characters, paths and processes, just because WE WANT TO BELIEVE THERE IS VALUE IN THIS EARTHLY EXPERIENCE and we ended up hanging on to whatever fitted us best, whatever we saw could uplift us the most out of the physical reality of suffering and abuse.

So, where is the value of the earthly experience? If it’s in the AFterlife, we may have been had, didn’t they say As ABove So Below ?  This statement is pretty consistent across teachings so what makes us believe that unless we correct what is HERE, the AfterHere should be better ?

If the Below sucks, who can swear by the Godliness and Heavenlyness of the ABove ? What if the Above is Us without the Body, the Breath, what is in fact making Us Real and not imaginary thoughts and information floating in space ? What if the Physical was supposed to be Heaven Equal for All before the After can be heavenly lived  by All Equally?

Now this is a point that hurts. We spent our Lives wanting to believe in the benevolence of this Universe, this was the hardest point for me to let go, my idea of benevolence,  it still brought up tears just now, because benevolence as creation had to include me and my own benevolence, I was born good from a loving Creator, it was living that fucked me up.

Yesterday I saw a post on FB that made me want to reply, but I refrained because I felt anger and I had to address that anger first, the post was of a naked woman with one breast that survived cancer and the title was ‘Isn’t God good ?’ No, actually God is not good and if we use this example as God saving her then we must think he gave her cancer in the first place, if God created everything we have looong lists of very questionable creations that need explaining, so delusions in our attempt to hold on to an idea of benevolence are rampant and the hardest to let go, for me this was a key point to allow myself to face reality and there were many hidden and disguised points all around the same theme that came up for a while and I had to address consistently, regardless the fact that my self realization of reality started from precisely  this point.

When I joined Desteni my perception of myself had already shattered, I was on a mind overload, I was full of knowledge and information, you named it, I knew about it, heard about it, read about it, no practical application of anything, by that time I was on my knees with a self-created crippling addiction to Pot, my drug of choice to numb myself out of reality, and unable to hold any further delusion about myself, spirituality, LOA, Matrix Energetics, Quantum Physics and the Goodness ad benevolence of this experience and of the HereAfter.

The slippery slope started with the Conspiracy theorists, I bumped on some information about cure for cancer, and found that a few had claimed to be able to cure it and had been persecuted, isolated and threatened and some killed, from there the Benevolence of a planet in which I participated with my cancer research support, charity balls, upholding the benevolence of Humanity and all that bullshit just came tumbling down like a castle of cards.

There was no benevolence I could still see in a world where we kill each other, abuse each other, withhold a cure for a deadly disease, rape, torture, poisoning of food, water, Big Pharma, mind control of  humanity for consumerism, tied each other down through an economic system of enslavement, the Borgia would be shocked to see how far we took their teachings of manipulation and power crimes. Humanity was in a state of mess, spirituality became just another obvious delusion in the face of a Profit driven world that I had fully embraced and learnt how to make it work, for me.

So benevolence of the system was the first point to go (on the surface) and then benevolence of me as a proficient system participant went next. Desteni already knew all of this, I did not have to crawl there and confess that I was just as non benevolent as the rest of the world, they did not care for crawling Human beings, they cared for those that would stand up from the crash of the acknowledgement of their abusive inner nature and would stand up for what is best for All, they were putting together people who had self realized a need for self correction and offered tools to walk a process of undoing the participation in and as the system of abuse to rewrite a program of Oneness and Equality that would work under the principle of What is Best for All.

There is no guidance in this process but a Self Honest approach to where one stands in need for correction and how to go about it, no one can self correct on our behalf, we put the shit in our Minds and charged it with emotions and feelings and breathed it into Life as the Breath of Existence, we are the only ones that can undo it, this creation is the representation of our inner worlds, of what we have accepted and allowed One and Equal to ourselves, each one of us is a living Hell as a self-imposed judgement within a debt system for the creation of separation and having taken it so far.

We are releasing Self Judgement as who we are, it’s in our self judgement as the Court that condemned us and others to such existence that this world has taken Life from our Breath into existence, we’ll have to breathe it back, self correct it and re-breathe it and rebirth it into Life, there is no way out of this but to walk backward what we have birthed into existence.

The All There Is is HERE, this is it, nothing exists but us, nothing will correct us but ourselves, it’s time to let go of our delusions, It’s Bad For Ya, as George Carlin said, but in fact it’s bad for all of us, this is the price of Oneness, we are tied to each other in this self-destructive stance, we have condemned each other to a Life of starvation while we starve ourselves, from Life, from being all that we could have been, from being One and Equal instead than separated in 7 billion little pieces, and now in Oneness we’ll have to wait for each piece to catch up, to bring back the Wholeness of Oneness, and this can only happen through Equality, Unequal pieces cannot fit the puzzle, and until we stand up for Equality the world stands as the big damn puzzler we have become.

Unravel yourself to become an Equal so you too may stand as the solution to what the world is and the correction that is needed to manifest a new world, drop spirituality, drop anything that prevents you from seeing that unless you make yourself an Equal, we’ll have to wait for you and this process will be delayed and we will have to suffer more just for that one piece that was not willing to realign and come back to Equality.

Equality  is the way Home, we have to move slowly to allow all the pieces to catch up, to allow Equal chances for the necessary Self realization that we are in fact in a process of correction, making a U-turn, steering the wheel from Inequality to Equality, from Separation to Oneness, You are not the Mind as Thoughts Emotions and Feelings, This is NOT who you are, unless you insist on believing it, or you could in one Breath realize that you are Life, Equal and One, please try,  Breathe, Realize Who You Are, so we may all go Home.

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2012: Earth Ltd, firing God as the CEO and CFO

Last night I lay in bed and wondered if the 10 commandments translate the same in English as they do in Italian, as I think this could be one of the many reasons why we don’t have the same fear responses when it comes to religious quotes, so I went and had a look this morning and found out to my surprise that they DON’T! So not only we have been living a lie as Catholics but we have not even been living the same Lie.

Within a Corporate set up this is a big breach of Protocol, information must be equally shared to all of the corporations members, that the “God corporation” is such there is no doubt, it’s not even a non-profit one having been selling God and God paraphernalia to the hopeful believers for thousands of years, it’s a profit-making organization with extremely poor management skills.

When we enter a new job, there is nowadays what is called The Company Mission Statement, it tells you what is the objective of the company, what they have at heart and how do they plan to go about reaching their targets, plus you have an employment contract, that tells you what is expected of you, what are your duties and what are your rights.

As a corporation that employs millions of people in the world and has millions of employees, the Vatican as the Earth representative of God on Earth Ltd, making sure that we get it that the planet belongs to them and showing off all their goodies on display on their heads or hands or inside the churches, they failed miserably when it comes to management of Earth and the Earth resources.

We could input this to the separation that finally took place at the time of Descartes when the Church and the State were separated in duties and powers, the State got to rule the secular powers and the Church got to rule the sacred/ eternal powers. Even if today we don’t perceive it as such, at the time it was considered a victory for the people, a chance to get the leech that the Church had proven to be, off their backs and find some illusory relief in a fairer rule of the people for the people, that never came to be.

The Church was left with the ruling over the eternal powers, this took some skills to manage, because first you have to CON-vince everyone that there is something beyond death that they rule over, for this they needed Money, lots of it. Why would I make such a statement ? Because only with seeing the Money that we know is the seal of God on Earth, The Light of God on Earth, the A plus to a work well done that shows you are among the chosen one, they could fool everyone. They had to show the goodies to inspire the respect of the people, they showed off like Kings and Queens their Godly heritage, it was there to see, look, God gave me all this stuff, want some ?
Follow me I teach you how we do it (but they can’t, they cannot teach you how you open a bank in a make belief state that launders money for the Mafia, or how to build the biggest property portfolio of the planet, you need Capital for that, you must have it to start with, they won’t provide it, they in fact teach you how to be happy without Money, something they have not yet achieved for themselves, they are forward teachers, teaching what is yet unknown to themselves, but they convince you that you will have an eternal Life – a good one otherwise the shit hole you experience is just never going to end-  to look forward to if you do as they say, and who could honestly forgo such a bargain ? We are bargain trained after all).

So in truth nobody has ever followed the church if not for the Fear of God, and that Fear translated in not being able to survive, God = Love = Money and Money equalled your ability to survive, to be respected, to be feared, to be free, to be alive. Nothing has changed from then.

Back to the Corporation, in this religious Corporation we are given a to do list, an employee code of conduct, it’s called The ten Commandments, but NO rights whatsoever, I was pissed today when I saw on the Holy See site that they translated the Ones for the Italians as they pleased, they even changed the Holy day to Sunday from the Sabbath which was the saturday and they wrote it on the original English list, but then we worship the Sunday. I found an interesting Italian website that states in a LOT of words that the Vatican is Satan, one sign is the worshipping on Sundays, another sign could be that they have changed the 10 Commandments just for us brain-damaged Italians as they must think we are people with ADD who could not compute sentence long commandments but had to be given an easy to remember one liner ones, pity in the transcription they made a few changes to suit the Corporation, instill Fear and sell the solutions, confessions and the sacraments.

So half of the world is a Satan worshipper in sheep clothes, no, they are not just wearing sheep clothes, they are just sheep for real.

But does it matter, if one worships God or Satan ? Isn’t it obvious by now that they have been sharing the powers of the planet and beyond until now, good and evil, right and wrong, what is forbidden and what is allowed. At least Satan seemed fairer, for the time on Earth fuck around, have fun, care about nobody and just enjoy your life, there is no other life, get the most out of this one. God instead has been a tight ass forbidder, don’t do this, don’t do that, not that he had a better result than Satan looking at the state of the world, he just pushed people to be dishonest about what they did anyway, and as the ultimate reward He gave them the confession, yes I know you’ll fuck around and do all the demonic stuff I forbade you to do, but if you come to me, I’ll wash you clean and then you can start from scratch, where you left off, I have absolutely no faith in you being able to change, You Are Only Human, I am God instead, a revengeful, wrathful tantrum thrower but I have not hidden this from you, I’ve told you in oh so many stories, so what you see Godly about me escapes me, stop calling me God, you embarrass me, Creator will do just fine.

Now, back to the state of Earth Inc, of which we are all the stakeholders but unfortunately not yet the shareholders, we have had a CEO and CFO, God, the Church says that they represent the AlMighty God on Earth, He is Almighty but not All Willing, he could have fixed this mess but he did not, he allowed unfair distribution of resources of the planet to the Chosen Ones, His information sharing skills suck, we have been kept in the dark about catastrophes, plagues, epidemics, pandemics, murders, violence, not one clue has been given and he left it to us to work it all out.

So a corruptible unfair Chief Financial Officer who has had a slant in the support of secular nepotism, as the Vatican shows, incompetent Chief Executive Officer, because he has not taken any responsibility for the shit he has done unpunished for centuries, except sending his son to take the shit on his behalf (…and what does that say about him as a loving parent ?) and his organizational skills, to say the least are pathetic, has been in charge of the Earth, where have we been meanwhile ?

The World is in a mess, if we accept that polarity is an illusion we can see that both God and Satan are not real, they are the embodiment of our Hopes and Fears, of our desire to not take responsibility for this creation, there is only us here for real, We Are All There Is, and the leeches that have been sucking the blood out of us, the Blood Money, with our permission in exchange for the deliverance from our fears (not real) and eternal life,  for a safety net, for the mark of the Beast that would guarantee to us the entrance in some place after death, to not have to believe that our lives were just that, a series of  unmanageable events and sad stories that we covered up with a nice invention, LOVE, a good feeling word to keep us separate from what we did not want to see, to not have to face the extent of our lack of responsibility, of our acceptances and allowances that turned the world into what it is today.

God is not real, Satan is not real, and if God is real he is fucking fired for the incompetent heartless psychopath he has turned out to be and do not fool yourself with “the Universe” story, get real, you have just changed the name tag on the Management Door, but you are still not in charge, I know because I have done exactly that, I have ditched God for the Universe only to discover I was a clever fucker for doing just that, it’s still was not ME responsible for having to change, for having to stand up and say ‘Til Here No Further”, because honestly, what else should happen in this world to make us say, Fuck this is totally unacceptable and I know I won’t be able to live with myself if I don’t stand up now ?

Havent’ you had enough already ? Then stand up for Life !

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2012 The LOA and the Illuminati led me to Desteni

My story of how I came to Desteni is a bit convoluted because I started as a staunch follower of Abraham Hicks and the Law of Attraction and for years I had disciplined myself to ‘think positively’ and to repress and suppress the negative thoughts – because they never really, went away, buggers – and I used Pot as well to push them down deeper because I wanted so much to believe the story that the Universe is a loving place and we were given an emotional guidance system as a sign of such loving force.

I had to battle a few common sense questions at the beginning which were: if this is the Truth of reality, why doesn’t everybody know about it, why is it a Secret, why don’t we teach it in school and now to the hungry people so they can get food and whatever they need ?

Through ‘my belief’ in the Law of attraction I had some success, at least I believed it was because of the LOA and not by my personal investment, obviously the system is designed to reward happy slaves and not grumpy ones, so by my ‘forced happiness’ I managed to get myself good jobs and a good life while I kept at bay all my friends with a ‘negative attitude’ in fear to be contaminated and having to lose the touch of Grace that I had with much struggle, built for myself.

This was another point that I questioned about existence, it seemed to me that everyone had had traumatized  lives, when everyone would participate in what Carolyn Miss defined as woundology, the wounds of the others never seemed so much better than mine, so this other question of an existence of suffering was something I suppressed because I could not find a logical answer to this, why would a loving Universe have people born and traumatized, really, what was the point that I was missing ?

The teachings of Abraham anyway always made sense to me, I made them make sense because they did  in fact make me feel better, by uplifting me out of my own responsibility for this world, One and Equal to me, I embraced the belief that we all came to experience something Here in a kind of  ‘Game’  just to have all the views and first hand experiences  of existence first hand so to speak and that was it, then back to Heaven.

Four years ago I left my well paid job in Asia and went to live on a tropical island in Thailand, I had two main objectives, one was to heal myself from my crippling addiction and underlying never died depression for which I self medicated with Pot, the other was to understand reality, as well I said to myself, now that I had mastered the LOA I would multiply my money and then I would be free to do whatever I wanted, I wasn’t a bit interested in ‘other people’s experience’ because as Abraham said, their life is ‘their Pie’ never mind what other people decide to put in ‘their Pie’, you mind  your own Pie’, and so I -conveniently- did.

Of all of the Abraham teachings only one thing stood out for me one day, when Abraham said that when we desire something it’s already there 99% of it, we just need to align to make the 1% missing step to get it. This puzzled me extensively because I saw that, if this was true, what did He mean ? But he had explained that what he meant was that the Universe knew better than us what we truly wanted and had already prepared it there for us, we just had to align with it. Still, this sentence stood out of all the teachings as an ‘anomaly’.

When I was on the island I quit Pot and relapsed and quit and relapsed and went on like this for 3 years, every time I relapsed I fell harder into oblivion, it was clear that I had engaged a self destruct mechanism somehow and I just wouldn’t let it go, I wrote lists of my excuses to smoke Pot, did chanting, went on  marijuana Anonymous Forums, took a drug coach from the UK for guidance but the Pot call was always the strongest, I didn’t want to exist, I longed to obliterate myself into non-existence as soon as I could, no matter how many ‘positive thoughts’ I indulged in a day, the hole was always there, ready to swallow me.

This hole was like a black spiral, when I was a kid I faced it every night just before falling asleep, I would feel myself slip away spiralling into the black hole and many times I had to open my eyes and grab the bed trying to not give in to the feeling of being sucked into nothingness.  Me and the black hole had become quite close quite soon in my life experience.

So, during my stay on the dream island I set out to study,  I studied everything I could find on addictions, molecular nutrition, theories about vitamin deficiencies, the unconventional routes and the very unconventional ones, I listened to all the channelers to see if anyone had any clue of why I was such a wreck, At one point I bumped into Bashar as well who said ‘that everything you may think of or desire already exists somewhere’, oh boy, there we went again, so now the doubt of this existence as a maze in which I could only pretend to move and make choices came up again, if I wasn’t really free to think up something or imagine it from scratch because it already existed, where was my creative power all these love and light channelers were bragging about ? Then I was not a creator, I was a human magnet, attracting to myself experiences already thought up and designed in detail by someone else, while others, the poor bastards – as one of my friends boss used to call the ‘ less fortunate’ -, they would have to take the crumbles of our first class choices.

Polarity bothered me, when they introduced the concept of the Quantum Field, where everyone saw this amazing infinite creative power, I saw the limitation of a field, a cosmic soccer field, where everyone was kicking each other around,  limited by the definition of ‘field’  itself, a field cannot be infinite come-on, you can have a very big field, an extremely big field a gigantic field but not, ever, an infinite one, infinity cannot be defined by a field because it’s infinite = not  finite !

Meanwhile wasted time went on, I was using up my money because I was sure I could manifest truckloads being I was soo positive, I would say the right words to everyone at all times, but there was a piece missing about my interaction with others which was my secret mind I could say ‘you look lovely’ and leave out the ‘BITCH” part that went on in my head, in fact the more I wanted to be positive and see only the good, the more my backchat became vicious, I was ashamed of the thoughts that went on in my mind but consoled myself thinking that everyone had them, it was normal, important is to not engage them suppress them deep enough –    which is  like trying to wrestle a thought into the ground for the win, an impossible feat – and you will be fine.

The money wasn’t manifesting though, this was annoying because I had gone to the tropical island with much fanfare about my manifesting a grand future for myself, instead I was living like a shameful recluse pissing my money away and drowning deeper and deeper into my Pot addiction with no solution in sight.

At that time I spent extensive hours on the net, mainly because I was unable to do anything else except going for treatments to all  the island healers trying to keep my elusive balance just enough to be able to exist.

I bumped onto a video of Sunette/Desteni the first time 3 years ago, it was about Demons, it scared the shit out of me and I felt sorry for this girl/boy who was obviously possessed, and moved on.

My researches led me to see that there was something terribly wrong going on with the world that I had never noticed in the years I was away on the Love and Light Cloud, I discovered that cancer cures were suppressed , that our water was fluorinated not for good health but as a poison, that the mercury in our teeth was poisonous to the brain, that the GMO foods whose life cycle chains had been broken lacked nutrition, that sugar and aspartame affected the brain, that vaccines were deliberately contaminated, all of these things came up one after the other until the picture of this world looked so bleak that I wanted to die. it was not just the story, it was the thought that someone BIG must have thought up and designed a sort of  plan against humanity, because these could not be coincidences, one can poison the water by mistake, but not everything we have to use daily including the air, it was the deliberateness of it all that felt disheartening, what had humanity come to for Money ?

While I kept watching you tube for answers each point I opened was worse than the previous one and then I bumped onto a video called ‘who killed Michael Jackson’, it kept coming up until one day I watched it.

That video opened up the whole Illuminati New World story, the satanic worshipping, human sacrifices of children by the Elite, Satan in the Vatican, the Secret Societies, slowly I was paralyzed by fear , because when the story of MK Ultra and Mind Control and Michael Tsarion opened up, I still believed it was about other people out there, people they had access to, the Army, Hollywood, pawns used to harm and deceive but still the magnitude of the design left me feeling minute and powerless and alone, who the fuck would believe this and why is this going on while we are sleeping, why are we sleeping ? Are alcohol and Pot just some other sleeping tools, least we wake up and see how far we have gone into self-destruction and destruction of everything around us ?

At that point another video of Sunette popped up, it was the channeling of Anton Lavey, I had just read about him, because by that point it was clear to me, we were in Hell and nobody knew, better check with the demons worshippers and demons channelers to see what the fuck is going on.

When I watched the first video of Sunette that I could follow to the end,  I realized while she talked about breathing that I could barely breathe, it took me some time to overcome the initial shock and many videos to overcome the Fear because the puzzle completes only ‘when you watch whole of the damn material’, until then the pieces here and there can add to the confusion and to the feeling of hopelessness of this design (so watch the whole damn material before making up your mind).

I had understood that the Matrix was real, not a loving Matrix like the people of Matrix Energetics teach, nope, it was a terrifying web of deceit and lies, everything that I had learnt in my life was a Lie, this was quite a hard story to swallow.

It took me a few months to stabilize, I am quite new to the process but I can say that without this process and the information Desteni provided I would have died either of shame or of Fear or both.

Instead I managed to quit my Pot addiction using Self Forgiveness and Self Honesty and walking this process supporting myself with the example of others that had walked before me and had made it out of their self-destructive behaviours. I am working every day at stopping my participation within me as the Mind and stopping my reactions and blame games by bringing what bothers me back to myself as something I need to address by digging into the root cause of the design to deprogram myself. And I am learning to Breathe, would you believe that we can’t Breathe until someone comes along and points it out to us. I had never really breathed until I met Desteni, never breathed as Me as Breath.

Now I have learnt that all that exists is Self and I am learning how to bring back all the pieces of this broken world to me as me and give myself back to myself, obviously along the way into our creation we made a few miss-takes and we ended up in this pit of suffering and abuse in which we walk around like amnesiacs in a stupor. But we can correct our miss takes by becoming One again, and from that Oneness learn to give Equally to all the parts of ourselves that we have neglected and abused in our race to be winners and in our search for happiness as an experience of ourselves in separation from the whole. This is why we endorse an Equal Money System, in one single agreement we could undo our miss-taken stance of separation, with one true real act of compassion for all the parts of Self we would create heaven on Earth for everyone. This takes a while to see, at the beginning of my process I couldn’t even talk about it, it was just so far away from who I was, I had to close the gap between me the problem and me the solution to be able to see Equal Money=Equality as the solution, to see myself no longer as a wreck but a piece of the solution.

I can say is that I am glad I have found Desteni, I know others will walk the same slippery slope of the Illuminati and the New Wold and feel extensive Fear in separation from what exists Here, what I can say is that when we take back the responsibility of this creation the Fears diminish, the Fears are just bells that re-mind us we can’t have our cake and eat it, we can’t believe we are separate and get a good dandy life, because in separation there is misery and suffering and desire to self-abuse and to abuse others in self-interest.

There is only one road back Home, it’s Oneness and Equality, since I met Desteni I don’t feel as lonely as I used to yet I know I am alone and All One and it’s OK, since I met Desteni my Life is no longer a string of sad stories but a realization, that I can make it back Home because Home is Here, I was the one who left to go somewhere else, off into my Mind Make beliefs and fears, going Home is not a destination but a realization, it’s the Here-ness we left behind where all Life has always existed One and Equal.

Here never moved, Here never left, Here is where Life is and I will myself to be Here as Life, Breath by Breath, One and Equal to everything that exists for myself and All existence Equal and One.

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How were we created ? God, Universe, Matrix ? Ready for the Truth ?

Have you ever wondered what is the Truth about our creation ?

Haven’t you found strange that such a simple fact seems to have been interpreted in so many different ways ?

Why isn’t there 1 truth about our Creation that we all share, no matter where we were born ?

Can the Truth be Geographically biased or impaired and therefore more True in some places than in others ?

Some people believe in Adam and Eve and the 7 days creation, some in a giant turtle holding the world while floating in space, some in the Universe, some are Evolutionists.

If there was 1 Creation how can we have so many myths about it, why not 1 similar story we all share across cultures ?

Are we the image and likeness of a loving Creator in a world where suffering and famine and abuse rule supreme ?

What if  we were just pawns in a giant Matrix design ?

Was the Creation story deliberately withheld from Humanity and if so why ?

If you are looking for real answers you’ll find everything you have ever wondered about at our Equality Space, time to Stand up for Life,  join us.

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The Structural Resonance was a mathematical geometrically equated structural design which manifested as the systems which beings had become.

Veno explains: What is structural resonance and how are you able to assist yourself, working with it?

This video-series consists of 9 video-interviews:

  1. The design of humans by Annunaki and other races
  2. The development of unconscious, subconscious and conscious mind
  3. Relationships and subconscious mind development
  4. Conscious mind development and system parasites
  5. Mind-control, implants and preprogrammed life
  6. The conscious mind, thoughts and personality activation
  7. Relationships and subconscious mind development
  8. The secret of self-support
  9. The secret of self-direction

Why do we Fear Self Honesty ?

I was evaluating the possibility of furthering my education in management and have been looking into the Kaizen system and I was led to this site on lean management where I found this article

“The Psychology of Lean Management

By : Michael Ballé

When was the last time you remember thinking “I was wrong about this”? Yesterday? Last week? Never? Let’s conduct a short thought experiment: force yourself to think of an instance, any instance, where you were clearly wrong. How does it feel? Are you already lining up the mitigating circumstances (anyone would have done the same in this situation / that’s who I am)? Or the upsides (in the end, it’s a good thing that I was wrong because I’ve learned / cleared the air/ made things move, etc.)? If you are, don’t worry: this is perfectly normal and a sign of sanity. Only the clinically depressed are truly honest about themselves.

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I found this astonishing, the last sentence a revelation about a point I am facing regarding my walk of self honesty to see and point out to myself what I need to address in self for-giveness to give myself back to myself so I can start to rewrite myself in alignment with what is best for All.

The reason why I found this quote particularly disturbing is that I like to believe that many are not aware of being dishonest, I prefer this view of the world, I find it a sort of comfort to think that I am a liar and a cheater by my own design and admission but there are others that are not, the world is not as bad as me after all, there is still hope.

This point is particularly relevant because I have been struggling to write lately while I can see I should instead push myself through this point because just in the sentence above I see so many things worth looking at about myself.

First, my desire to still hang on to delusions about the inherent goodness of humanity, this one is a hard one to die as I had made this point a big justification flag for myself and others to not have to change by accepting and allowing within me the beLIEf that we were all good at heart and just got mislead by our history, life, past relationship, culture and religion and within this accepting and allowing myself to believe that change for humankind is actually out of the question, supporting with this mine and others inability to change.

Second the point that I am a liar and a cheater but others are not, they are better than me and this stems for sure from my past acceptance of the catholics beliefs of us sinners of which just recently I heard again one of the prayers we were taught that said ‘My lord, I am not worthy to sit at your table, but if you say just one word I will be saved’, we repeated this bullshit by heart so many times, every day as it was part of our education, so we allowed and accepted ourselves  to believe in ourselves as not only less than the Lord, a belief that I moved with ease from Heaven to earth as every time i heard someone name preceded by ‘Lord’ I would take a step down in the human ladder to make space for the worthy ones, but I believed as well that my words were powerless, which then led me to use them uselessly and carelessly causing much harm while I dwelled in my self-appointed lower rings of the Heavenly and Human race.

Third my desire for hope, I wish I still had some, even now that I realize it is useless it was a good feeling word, I miss the good solace I took for myself from the useless words I invested of the power to uplift me from my self-created misery, I miss love as well, the word charge that is no longer there, the pictures I could sum up in my mind to depict the ultimate state of grace, I am going through a phase of lack of sense in opposition to my more habitual sense of lack.

This article that I found opened up a huge point, which is, not only humanity as a whole is aware of its own dishonesty, systems of management have been written specifically to manage this point, so our acceptance and allowance of our inability to change our devious ways has become an external system of management, we manage our inability to change, basically we have long given up on ourselves and found ways to just cope with what we have allowed and accepted ourselves to believe we are, talk about self-respect, that one must have gone much earlier than our efforts to manage our diminished selves were put in place, if we ever had any to begin with.

If we have come to the conclusion that we are hopeless and unable to change, the last sentence of the paragraph I quoted makes total sense, we came to this conclusion: when you are self dishonest ” If you are, don’t worry: this is perfectly normal and a sign of sanity. Only the clinically depressed are truly honest about themselves.”.

So basically, what I am trying so desperately to avoid when I resist writing is to go into that place, the place of insanity where self honesty lives that makes people ‘clinically depressed’ , because I fear mental problems, because there have been undiagnosed mental problems in my family, because my mother was clinically depressed outside of a clinic and she had a pretty clear view, almost self honest about herself, and because I fear depression, I fear self honesty because I have accepted and allowed myself to connect self honesty to depression.

So, why are the self honest people ‘clinically depressed’ ?

Because in self honesty we have to look at this world, at our creation and no longer having any tangible proof of a messy or merciful God, we’ll have to admit we have done this, we have created this mess and now we rather lie and cheat than admit it and face it because we extensively fear facing our own creation.

Pity we miss out on the point that the burden of responsibility has another face, which is the power to change, the power to decide that if I have created all this, I can change it, I don’t need to be depressed about it, because I was depressed until now and this is exactly what I was lying about, I lied about the fact that everything was good and dandy when it was not, I lied to myself about inequality being just the way the system works instead of asking myself the uncomfortable questions that ended up leading me to Desteni to discover An inconvenient Truth.

But then again, a truth that is inconvenient means nothing, means only that is just no longer convenient to uphold, it was convenient for me when I was looking for the buzz of the good feeling trip through the world, but now that I have given up the importance of good or bad feelings and emotions (not the practice completely but walking toward it) I no longer need the convenience of a Truth that is not True.

The truth is we are Creators, no matter what role we are apparently playing in this world, we are all Equally responsible for it, we say that Equality doesn’t exist yet on this planet but in fact it exists already in our common shared responsibility for our creation, it exists because we and our creation are both Here, waiting to meet, we are already Equal in responsibility, we just need to acknowledge that to become Equal in the Power to change it and then the step to Equality on Earth won’t seem so far away to walk anymore.

Equal Quality for All Life = E-Quality, when Equality will become a manifested reality we’ll have to rewrite our management systems to match the Human Beings we will become, if we take away the controls we had to design to overcome our dishonest nature, which now constitute up  to 60% of the Lean Management theory, we will be left  with a real Lean management practice !

We can change, we can decide to stand up for Life and realign to What is best for All, because what is Best for All is ultimately best for each one of us !

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To learn how we were created and then created ourselves into what we are today check out

The Structural Resonance was a mathematical geometrically equated structural design which manifested as the systems which beings had become.

Veno explains: What is structural resonance and how are you able to assist yourself, working with it?

This video-series consists of 9 video-interviews:

  1. The design of humans by Annunaki and other races
  2. The development of unconscious, subconscious and conscious mind
  3. Relationships and subconscious mind development
  4. Conscious mind development and system parasites
  5. Mind-control, implants and preprogrammed life
  6. The conscious mind, thoughts and personality activation
  7. Relationships and subconscious mind development
  8. The secret of self-support
  9. The secret of self-direction


There will be no More Psychics within an Equal Money System

The world of polarity as it is today, where for some to have some must have not,  it’s like living inside a Russian roulette game, you never know when your luck will turn, you may lose your money and therefore, your house, your family, your health and ultimately your Life, because at the moment, everything is based on Money, even what you define as ‘relationships’ and you and I are not in charge yet of our own future within this Money System, we go along with it, we accept it and allow it but we don’t make the decisions, we are subjects of it, run by it.

So we resort to licensed soothsayers, people that we pay to tell us it’s all going to be all right, so for a little while we can put our Fear of the Future, our Fear of losing what we love and have put our value in, our Fear of being penniless and forced to compromise ourselves even further than we normally do just about everyday to survive, aside and take a breath.

So Psychics today are an outflow of our Fear of Existence, an interesting fact is that only some, yet again, those with money, will have access to some soothsaying, the very ones that should have to fear the least because their position within the system is quite assured, are the ones who fear the most, because the more you have the more you may lose, the Greater the Fear.

The Poor ones instead have to live with the Fear, this is what this system wants, the only thing we get for Free in truckloads are Fears, we are administered our daily dose of fear through television, Movies, and the Money System itself, the ultimate weapon that decides how we move, what kind of freedom we have, who lives and who dies.

The Money System hangs over us like the ultimate threat, the tide could change according to those who decide how the tide should move and we would be deleted.

I was recently reading an Italian book about Sicily one hundred years ago where the Noble Man of the village was counting the people and he stated that only 390 lived there at which affirmation the foreign guest replied ‘ my lord, you must be mistaken there are at least 9000 people in this village’ to which the prince replied ‘There are only 390 that count’, because the rest were poor, and so they didn’t count, the poors don’t count.

Within an Equal Money System there would be no Poors, everyone would have Equal Access to the primary Life Resource as it is designed today, the Money (until we can all collectively get over this illusion), therefore everyone would count.

Furthermore because our futures will be taken into account by a system that supports Life we won’t have to fear anything anymore, because the system will be designed in service of Life, and Money will just be a commodity to which we will all have agreed to give the value it should have always had, the value to support Life, in its every expression.

Our Futures will no longer be uncertain, and there will be no longer fears dished out to keep people paralyzed within a system of inequality because we will design this system from our own fearlessness of standing up to it, One and Equal to it, to make the necessary changes in support of Life and so fear will no longer be a part of the manifested outflow of who we are, Fear will be out of the picture and where there should still be Fears we will address them as psychological disorders not in need of soothsaying but in need of correction.

Because Fears are not Real and we will no longer let what is not Real run the lives and destinies of Humanity.

So, psychics for the purpose of soothing Fears and telling Futures will no longer have a place within a New Equal Money System, and they will have to correct themselves and find a way to express who they are as Life, for-giving what they have done for the love of Money and the desire to be Special and More than others like all of us are in the process of doing, so that they may become valuable members of a society of Equals.

Because the Value of each will be in the Equality we give to each other, in recognizing that we All as Life are Equals and have the same rights to a dignified Life as everyone Else.

We will Stop all justifications about why some deserve something more than others and we will all deal with the shame of having ever believed that through self forgiveness.

No more psychics in an Equal Money System, because the Future is certain and within Equality there will be no more abuses.

It’s like a dream isn’t it ? But it’s not, it’s real, it’s Here, join us, the Future is Here, we hope to see you Here soon too.

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The Volcanoes in Italy and why are we building on high risk areas ?

 

Yesterday I watched a documentary on Nat Geo regarding Mount Vesuvio made by foreign volcanologists.

It seemed to me that they knew far more about what is going on with the Volcano situation in Italy than their Italian counterparts, to check what they were saying I went onto the Civil Protection website, only to discover that the Maps highlighting the ‘high risks’ area are no longer there.

This should be an information available to the public, so what is the reason why we have taken down those maps ?

One could be what the foreign volcanologists were saying, we keep building on the slopes, meaning the very high risk areas within 4 km from the mouth of the Volcano. They went on explaining that apartments there are on sale for 30000 euros which is an unknown property price anywhere else in Italy, so how is it possible to have such cheap properties ?

Simple, you buy yourself a discount for accepting the risk of being involved in a fatality due to lack of Money. If you cannot get a house and you have a family you will agree to the unacceptable.

These areas have not been given building rights, so how do we circumvent this in Italy ?

Well, first we take down the Maps highlighting where you should NOT live from the Civil Protection site, then we tip the local Mafia about a profitable business, and make them do the paperwork, for future liability,  most constructions business are well known Mafia businesses in Italy because there is a lot of Money in constructions.

It has been calculated that our Illegal activities, meaning Mafia & CO. have a GDP twice the official GDP of Italy, so who are we kidding when we talk about who is in Power ? Because at the moment Power is where the Money is, and this should not be understood as we have a Government and we have the Mafia, NO, we have the Government doing Official businesses and then we have the Government doing ‘Unofficial Businesses’ through the ‘Mafia’ with Foreign Bank Accounts in countries that protect anonymity.

So the People that we have chosen to Govern Us have not chosen to do the interests of the People, but to follow the Money Trail, wherever it leads, no matter how many lives it will cost.

To prove this the documentary people went and asked the Authority why they built AN HOSPITAL in the High Risk Area, this is a question we can easily answer, SUPER HIGH PROFITS.

Because the land in High risk areas is worth nothing having no construction rights, but then it goes through the hands of the Government, picks up value by being granted permits and it’s sold back to the Citizens within the Balance Sheet at market prices having been given particular exemption because they said ‘they are building with the highest antiseismic  technology. Which would be like saying that they built a Tornado resistant building in a Tsunami area, absolutely useless.

For those who don’t have familiarity with our Volcanic History we have Pompei and Hercolan to visit, they were buried in 79 ac, most people died instantly due to the lava and magma eruption that covered everything, the effect of such sudden event is still visible, as it has been preserved almost intact under the ashes, you can see people frozen in mid run, mothers with kids, their skulls exploded due to the heat, it must not have been a pleasant death.

People just did not have the time to evacuate, they didn’t even have the technology to assist them as we do today. But as funny as it may sound it might not make any difference, today we have the technology, we can measure the earth adjustments and slightest movements and predict the future ones based on mathematical calculations, we have visible signs of eruptions picking up, we know it’s coming, the messages are pretty clear.

So, what do we do now ?

First we look for a future culprit, someone to blame, this is why they brough to trial the seismologist that failed for l’Acquila, to set a precedent, so that when the Vesuvio will erupt, because it’s not an IF, it’s just a WHEN, they will know who to blame and they will walk once again with the money in their pocket and no responsibility.

It doesn’t matter that scientists have drawn maps for the past 20 years highlighting that those areas should be evacuated and never ever should buildings be constructed on the high risk zone, those maps are gone from the public view, because science at the moment is the servant of Money, and so science will have to bend back and forward until it meets the Truth that the Money demands.

When we think we have evolved, can someone tell me WHAT we have evolved into ?

Money grabbing heartless assholes ?

In China the last time they poisoned powdered milk for infants with melamine for profits, the judges asked one simple question, did you give it to your children too ? They said NO, and they were sentenced to death.

I am not advocating the Death penalty by any means, I’m just asking why don’t we ask the same questions, why don’t we ask them if they have built a house for their children in the High risk areas, because it’s a pretty clear question to establish if the harm was deliberate in the name of profit and there is no excuse for our deliberate actions, the minimum is we should be put in a position where we can no longer harm, and not be kept in government positions like it happens here, what’s wrong with us ?

We need to take a look at what we have become due to greed and lack of responsibility, out of perceiving ourselves separate from everything and everyone else, if we know these things are happening in Italy and in the world on a regular basis, why do we keep condoning them, why do we make heroes out of 1 man telling the Truth, like Roberto Saviano, is it because none of us is ?

Is it because none of us is willing to really look at what we are accepting and allowing and for which we are all responsible that we praise 1 truthful man as a hero, so that we can excuse ourselves because we were just not born heroic, we are fearful little pawns and we accept that there is nothing we can do to change the system, even speaking up endangers us, not only with those that actively commit these crimes, but with everyone, we are looked at as weirdos that want to be ‘negative’ and rain on someone else’s parade.

Here is the news, there is NO PARADE going on except in our heads, we live in a world of abuses that we sanction with our cowardice accepting that we are only human and the system is too big to be taken on.

But this system is US, it’s everything that we have accumulated over time in acceptances and allowances and as we have created it we can say ENOUGH, and look for a solution to restore some dignity to ourselves and to our lives.

Investigate a  new paradime for a New World, this reality is not working for everyone, in fact is only working for a tiny minority that apparently have all the power.

But where is the power of the majority, where is our resolve to really make a change if we can’t find it within ourselves to stand up and become actively involved in a solution, how can we expect the whole to change ?

We have one solution, a new monetary system that will end all abuses, we have looked at all facets of our system and how we can change it all to create a system that supports Life.

Investigate a New Monetary System, step out of your limitations to see what it could be possible if you stood up and decided that Til Here No Further and became involved as the Solution to the Current Situation.

YES, being dissolved in acid or beaten to death or shot for standing up has happened in the past here in Italy, it still does, but this is exactly the point, how long can we toleratae this and let our fears of the system stop us from speaking up and doing what would be Best for All, they keep playing these records for us on TV, keep reminding us what happens to those that stand up, have special TV shows where the relatives of the heroic victim speaks of the late departed, but I have one question in my head lately, are we Living anyway ?

Because if we are not even Living how can we Fear Death ? Is this a Life we are engaged in or is it a mockery of what Life should be and what it could be if we stood up for a solution  that could Benefit All and could be what is Best for All ?

Equal Money System, it will give Life back to Ourselves,  the Walking Deads, to everyone equally and will create a world of Equals, no more corruption, no more leadership, no more greed, no more violence, no more Fears, no more injustices and No One Left Behind.

It’s possible, it’s HERE, join us.

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