The Indefensible World of Equal Money

I have experienced 2 moments of Shame in 24 hours regarding supporting an Equal Money System.

The first was when I made a post on a Thread that I know was posted by a guy who understands this system and the problems we face and was suggesting Fascism as the solution to the World, due to Human Nature and the fact that people will have to be ‘forced’ into doing what is best for the community above the need/desires of the individual, which in fact are only imaginary programmed needs by a system that produces the delusion of Individualism to promote the sales of goods to the ‘original ones’ the ones that believe to be ‘not like anyone else’ (haha), another guy who has worked for Banks and knows economy inside out made a comment to say that he was entitled to his opinion but he didn’t see Fascism as the way to go and I posted about Equal Money; the guy who posted the original message replied that ‘yes there are some good points about Equal Money, but he doesn’t like the Cult side of it or the Metaphysical gibberish’ -in essence-, the other economist liked his comment and I felt ashamed and didn’t reply, the point that a cult brainwashes you and doesn’t un-brainwash you seems to not hold any consequential realization in people who have formed this opinion about Desteni in their Minds, the other points I will address further down the line.

Later in the day I met with my ex husband and when we moved our chat onto Equal Money he pointed out a few things, the first is that he sees no way to bring about a new system without much blood shedding, this can be due to the fact that he has a French background and that the French are especially ‘historically’ aware of the consequences of a revolution, no matter what originally drove it, as in good intentions and a desire for a fairer more Equal society can sometime turn into much blood shed, and the best man like Robespierre into a blood seeking revolutionary as a defender of an ‘ideal’.

The second point was that he cannot see ‘practically how this world can be managed by 4 -6 years of work, now this was not a point to ‘challenge my beliefs or opinions’ about Equal Money it was a management point, which I saw myself evaluate as a Project, in fact as any other project I would manage in which I would account for man-power in terms of TIME, because this is how we have learnt so far Project management, we estimate a timeline of events and then the Time needed to realize it to calculate both the manpower and the investment required. Yet none of us has in fact any of the required parameters to make this calculation, because

  • we have no timeline to walk for the events that shall unfold, hence one of the required parameters for this calculation is missing
  • we have no clue about what is really redundant, unnecessary or just simply manufactured to keep the system going within cycles of planned obsolescence or  what will we be able to do without and what will we use more efficiently that now, hence we don’t know WHAT we will be required to do to make this world work once all the parameters are reset, bar from seeing already that we will need to manage and distribute the planet resources the production and distribution of energy and water and  the management of waste
  • food production will be localized within the community life that will be set up but we have no clear clues as of yet about how this point will unfold
  • technology and how to drive innovation without a reward system and ‘healthy competition’ if any such thing even exists and how to move the ‘drive’ we now have to improve technology in a ‘drive-less’ world such as a carrot-less management system

So, as we are guesstimating what is ludicrous within our world system in terms of production that we may certainly do without, we are at this stage guesstimating everything else about a world that is not Here yet and so debating the point of HOW and the TIME required or the timeline or the lack of them to prove a point of UN-doability, is just an excuse to not get engaged, because experience will be required to be efficient in these new tasks and we will have to build that by doing it, because all manuals about ‘how to do’ something have been written after the ‘something’ was done, a few miss-takes in process were taken into account and corrected and the required ‘how to’ were refined into ‘this is the best way to do this task, trust me’

And yet I felt ashamed when he brought up these points, like I am stupid for NOT seeing the ‘truth about reality’ and I have to feel ashamed because I don’t have the whole picture yet, no project can be ‘sold’ without all pieces in place, and what we understand so far about projects is just this, ‘can I sell it?’ and this can be from both the point of finding investors and the point of con-vincing someone that this is the way to do something and please support my project.

So the point of shame arose from ‘I don’t have the whole picture’ and ‘he is making good points about it’

But let’s review both instances out of the box for a moment

First instance

two Economists chat about the troubles of the world which means

  • troubles are clear to them – a step ahead from those who do not see the troubles yet of abusing a world and its resources within a Profit Driven economic system that in no way is keeping into account sustainability or the speed at which the world can provide or recover what we take from it
  • apparently seeking solutions
  • dismissing Equal Money because we can only go for something we have already tried out, for example Fascism, and make the few adjustments required to make it work better, we can see how this mental process is exactly like writing a Manual, so we seek a process ‘that has already taken place’ and make adjustments within our Mind to set the new agreed SOP (Standard Operating Procedures).
  • last, we are not ‘selling’ this project, anyone who doesn’t see the need for change that will have to include US as The Change, is either kidding themselves or just passing papers so as to no be told ‘do something about it!’ which may include having to change himself/herself and the fact that when we do get access to Money, strangely enough, we seek for theories, groups, philosophies that confirm that ‘It is OK to make Money, it’s Noble, it’s a Proof that God/ The Universe loves me,  have done good, have good Karma, even when we can see clearly what we had to do to get the money and keep it, as investing in developing countries, or speculate on whichever market offered the speculation, meaning and including anything even the gambling on food stocks which are leaving whole regions in the world paralyzed and starving, and yet we cruise through the world, never making the connection between ‘my actions’ and the world, spreading stories like ‘The Butterfly effect’ and believing it only happens to a butterfly, that it is her fluttering of wings that creates hurricanes on the other side of the world, but No, it is not Me trading and buying stock of starving people and economies ever impacting anything, MOI?!? NOOO, it’s not me supporting a system of abuse, in every way I find, that is contributing to keep this system in place, because look I have GOD on my side, I pray, I thank the Universe, I am a Positive Thinker/Doer, don’t hint anything else, I want my PEACE/PIECE,  fuck off you Equality People, we are NOT Equals (I have WORKED HARD for MY Money!!)

But isn’t this just brainwashing in action? The Fact that we believe we are NOT allowed to design a NEW System, to review what went terribly wrong and write a new Economics, we are NOT allowed to face the fact that NOTHING worked so far, doesn’t THAT reek of brainwashing and limitation? We insist in trying to fix a flopped souffle, once you fucked it up it will never rise again, there is just no way, the ingredients were wrong, the process was faulty, you can try as many times as you want but if you insist to put rotten eggs in a souffle you will have a rotten souffle.

So, common sense would dictate that, since we have explored all variations in politics, the left, the centre, the right, NONE of which worked, there must be a problem with the ingredients, if we always had a rotten result, we really, truly, need to check the main ingredient, the eggs.

WE are the Eggs, far from rising to the occasion, taking to the streets demanding that the 1% that have a clue about how this whole system works give us a slice of it, hellooo, isn’t ANYONE seeing the absurdity of it? 99% of the People demanding that 1% change themselves because THEY are the problem? So where is the wholesome logic and common sense everyone is always throwing in the face of those supporting Equal Money as both a system change and a required indivisible individual change, because the system MUST be made by us, We are the 99% of the world, so where is the system as 100%, when you split it in 99 and 1, who would have to be required to change, and yet we focus on the 1% that won’t do this and that, won’t give up the power we have conveniently invested them with, so we wouldn’t have to become Self responsible, check out this mess and tell each other ‘no one leaves the room until we have tidied up the mess, there will be no playing until we first do what we need to do’. Isn’t this what we tell children? And yet we feel justified to fuck off to Mars, to hold Olympic Games in the face of a starving world spending millions building Cauldrons and fireworks to show off how Magic We Are and How More/Bigger/Better than Others we are, showing off our Pompous Useless National pride, and we justify what we do, because we have always done this and then attack a group that says, “but we can Change” and call Them brainwashed and cultish, yes that makes perfect sense.

SO, is Equal Money defensible within the parameters of what we call Logic and Pragmatism? Hell NO.

We cannot defend the fact that we don’t have all pieces in place yet, to ‘prove’ that we are right, and we cannot defend the fact that there is a Portal that everyone can check out that is reconnecting all the missing pieces of existence, we cannot defend WHY a Portal opened to give us a fucking clue about what is it that we are Not Getting, because really, we should have gotten it by now, we are the rotten pieces of this souffle, and justifying  the rottenness through Human Nature and having to accept who we are is a cop-out, it is what has in fact NOT changed the world so far, there will never be a dictator strong enough to hold everything in place, we tried that, and there will never be excuses we won’t be able to find to why we are NOT required to Change check us out, we are still full-time busy with this task and becoming ever more creative as we go.

But when we do, please, leave Equal Money out of the Equation, so that You too, when all else fails, will know where to turn and what to consider, the door will be open to join in, if only you refrain from fucking up the solution for yourself through your make up beliefs and limitations on why things are the way they are ‘out there’, not putting Yourself as part of The Problem just because you preach the “LOGIC of the System” to show WHY Equal Money will never work. Stop.

Equal Money is a system to establish a Life support on the Planet for all Equally and give ourselves and others the time to unfuck up, because the only ones that don’t get that we are the 99% it’s US, the system does and it designs entertainment and gimmicks with the specific purpose to distract us from the Matter at Hands, it tires us out with long hours of work so that when we come home we just want to crash on a couch and maybe drink or do drugs, so we may forget the sorry existence we live in, because if we did wake up to the Power and responsibility we hold, we would be a force to be reckoned with and a New World could not be stopped by anyone from manifesting for what is Best for All

So, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel ashamed for standing up for a world that is best for All, for a system of Equals, where Life is honored and we can stop fearing each other as the psychopaths we have become

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel stupid and clueless because I lack the parameters to properly estimate ‘what will it take’ to make this real, as I see realize and understand, no one has a fucking clue, and that if we in support of a New System don’t, the ones opposing Equal Money do not either and then the point becomes WHY are we not all standing together and walking this correction to find out, to Find the parameters as we walk to build this world that is required to be born out of the ashes of everything that has ever existed, because a system that leaves 1/3 of the world out in the cold is an abomination and our excusing it makes us a part and Equal to the Abomination and the Crimes against Life that are committed every day, and so We are the murderers, the soldiers, the war criminals, the rapists, the slave masters, the psychopaths of an existence that when we don’t defend we tolerate because it is working FOR ME.

And if you don’t get it, listen to Existence Talk at Eqafe, and get a fucking clue, because a Snail gets it and can tell you how You/WE are out of tune with Existence, an Owl can tell you how our separation is causing harm to the animal kingdom, an Elephant can give you parenting lessons and explain what it means to care for All as Equals, the dead will tell you what they didn’t get when they were alive and what needs to be done, and the consistency of the message of Equality and Oneness and on how we are missing out on Life, as we take useless Mind trips for self-gratification into our Self Delusions, is clear for all.

At Desteni we too can write, read/have read books, went to school, had a life, worked the system, have been married, engaged, had children, we are not aliens, we just heard the message, it’s there for everyone to access it, you will need to humble yourself to Existence or your Ego will stand in the way, telling you that you are MORE than a Snail, even when a snail can show us in CLEAR words how WE are NOT and if anything WE are less than the Animal Kingdom and the rest of Existence, that moves in tune with Each Other, understanding that nothing is separate and All is One sharing the exact same substance of/as Life and that if a snail can prove we have no fucking clue and are the most clueless creature in existence, who is then brainwashed to NOT SEE and not HEAR and not question this reality as a whole?

Imagine this, we live inside a body system that lives in Equality and Oneness, caring for each part of the whole, giving what is required for the whole to thrive at all times, never questioning, judging, never separating in useless religions or opinions, it just gets the job done, and YET we can’t SEE the way ahead, now please ask yourself WHAT more should Existence have done for you/us that place you/us inside a schooling system, we live IN IT, AS IT and so what did we do? We denied the Physical, we insisted that the Physical is in fact NOT REAL, AND made up Gods, stories, Religions, Belief System, anything that we could use to NOT face the Physical and what is showing us, the all consuming tragedy or Our separation and how we need to change our starting point and stop saying that we are just crossing through, that will be here for a moment and then on to Eternal Life, spreading our Lies, teaching them to children, enforcing beliefs for which we have never had an absolute commonly shared consistent feedback, and now that we do, we deny the Portal prior to an unbiased investigation and renounce its inestimable teachings. Because we are Insane.

This world is staring us in the Face as Our Creation for a reality Check, why do we keep looking away?

Breathe, come back Here and become part of the Solution, we all know this World is rotten and rotting away, let’s face it, let’s sort this out, let’s clean up the mess and then we can all go out and PLAY and discover the wonders of the Physical Existence – that we are at the moment busybusy annihilating- as One as Equals.

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2012: The Physical vs Spirituality, is there a war going on ?

I have been living on and off the ‘redefine Money’ thread, as I have been actively working on closing the Gap between myself and Equal Money and I have now bridged most points  quite efficiently as me, and I enjoy the sharing of this Wonderful New Unifying Concept to people who have not yet come in touch with it.

One thing that has ben happening consistently on the FB threads is the contribution of the spiritual groups, they are fiercely opposed, which is mind-boggling to say the least, for some reasons they fail to see Money as Equality fit quite comfortably  into all their well nurtured beliefs Goodness, helping each others, brothers and sisters, we are Love, the two things just don’t compute satisfactorily.

I want to look at my own experience with the Spirituality movement and how I embraced it for many years and why, as a way to see for myself my own motivations and what were my fears that led me to want and desire to believe in the invisible, discarding even the idea of looking at the physical where there was no effort to be made, nothing to believe, where it was enough to just open my eyes and look.

It started with looking for reasons for this existence, obviously I was not born rich, even though for the living standards of the time in Italy we were well off, my mum with her overtime money at one point even had enough to buy 3 Black and white TVs, we kept one, one went to my great-grandmother and one for my school. I felt very important when the nuns thanked me publicly for what my mum had done, and very proud, I was about to learn that Money could give me value and recognition and I enjoyed the feeling of being the vicarious giver and the acknowledgement that went with it.

As I grew up I realized that there was Inequality in the way people lived, even within my own family, my grandmother for the time we lived in was rich, had a nice big apartment with 2 bathrooms and a huge living room while we lived with my mum in the subsidized government housing. I envied the life my grandparents lived, the no limit life that Money can grant you, the freedom to go to the supermarket and not have a limited amount of money to spend, I liked the splurging, the luxury, the going out to eat at restaurants where I could order as many Cokes as I wanted, until I burst with gas and food.

I even looked down at my mum in contempt, I understood that Money=Value and since she had less, she had obviously less value, not only in my perception of course, this was her perception of herself but as a system I took it on board and made it mine.

My participation in and as the money System grew as I understood that Money buys you privileges, freedom, the ability to be mobile, to have choices, Money was clearly the God of this world, but on the outside I married the secretive attitude we hold about Money, we all know what it is for each one of us, yet nobody talks about it, owns up to it, instead we play it down, we say I don’t care about Money, we want to be noble, above it, beyond it because the fear that we will never ever have it, or never have enough is just too great to be faced.

I recall 3 movies that took on this point quite clearly, one was Indecent Proposal, where a woman in a couple is offered 1 million to have sex with R. Redford and they decide together with the husband to accept, and it destroys them, so this point was morality for sale, another more recent called The Box, where a black box is delivered to a very ordinary, well off, educated American family in the 60′ and they were told that they would have 1 million if they pressed the button on the black box, they were told as well that someone would have to die, but they did not know this person and had never or will never know who he/she was. This movie covered the point of morality, humanity and Life for sale. Did they press the button ? Watch the movie 🙂 But I am sure anyone can guess quite accurately.

The third movie was an Italian movie, very interesting, a man is unemployed and on a social grant for being an invalid, when his social grants are suspended he talks with the grant inspector and tells him, please don’t suspend my grant, yes I faked my invalidity but in a way it’s real, I was a communist and believed in communism for over 20 years until one day I woke up and realized the world I live in, my belief system collapsed, hence I am now invalid, no longer fit for society, so I never really lied you see, if you don’t support me you may be the one that turns me into a criminal, what choices does a mind invalid such as me have left ? But the system doesn’t stand by him and instead the inspector gives him a long speech about Honesty and what it means to be an Honest man, like himself. 8 Years later the Inspector starts to receive anonymous monthly envelopes with Money, big sums, like 20000 euros per month, and it goes on for 10 months. After 10 months the man to whom he had decided to suspend the social grants turns up, he tells him he was the sender of the money, he tells him he is just sharing his wealth and that it was thank to him that he turned into an efficient criminal, he was into selling drugs to children, prostitution of minors, robbing old women, and he had become as ruthless as the criminal life demands, all thanks to him, now it was sharing time. The Inspector said he had not touched a penny since he did not know where the money was coming from, the man told him he still owed him 800000 euro to get to 1 million of euros which was his rightful 10% of the ill earned wealth. The Inspector refused, the wife of the inspector asks to talk to him in private and threatens to leave if he doesn’t take the money, and so, he accepts, for the sake of the peace of the family. Only later the man tells him he had won the money betting every week for 10 years on the Inspector phone number, until the numbers came out, he won 10 million and wanted to give him 10%, but he wanted to show him that he was not as honest as he thought, nobody is, Money has an outwordly allure, we know what Money is connected to and what it could do for us, freedom, choices, no more fears for the future, possibility to share with others having enough for oneself, education for children, healthcare, it’s hard to say NO.

So, at an unconscious level that we play out in movies to show each other that we are just as dishonest as anyone else, as ready to sell out as anyone else, we all know, we KNOW we would make the same choices, Money or God, Money or Love, Money or Spirituality ? No matter what we think about ourselves somewhere inside of us we know what we would choose, Money is a sure bet, it can buy the ‘love’ of this world, meaning company and sex, with Money who needs God, being God just the insurance policy for the poor that have nothing else and Spirituality ? Come on, if you had all the Money in the world, would you mind fuck yourself into oblivion or would you take the round the world cruise, the trip you always wanted, go shopping for a house renovation, you would be the busy body into all the latest trends, the value point was never changed, just suppressed and it would be unleashed into spending frenzies updating your desires as days go by from the new spending power platform.

So Spirituality/God is the best compensation tool for the poor, the second price that has a ‘value’ on the value market, the rich are clever, they accepted to give value to spirituality/God as a noble thing, while they fuck off and enjoy the  Money. There are as well the ones that have too much to live peacefully, guilt and shame kill them but fear prevents them from sharing, so they are stuck between a rock and a hard place and that is the ideal spot for meditation, to quiet the mind, to stop the guilt and shame without having to give up or sharing the lot. And a great place to become Spiritual as a justification of WHY we don’t need to share or care without feeling guilty, it’s unrequired since all it’s just an illusion, we are energy in movement, information and patterns floating in space, All One already. I have been in both places myself.

For those that don’t have access to what they desired and for those that fear and are shocked by this reality we can say Spirituality is just another coping mechanism, a way to justify why the world is as it is, because if we dig back in time, we all have been asking ourselves this question, having been products of an abusive system that may have more or less touched us, scarred us and scared us, we know of the abuse that is going on, we have questioned it and when we came out of the questioning as “Spiritual Ones’ we have just simply, by default, given up substance and our ability to make any substantial change to the world system as me,  reality as me, One and Equal, as myself being the abused and abuser in a system that is not designed in benevolence, no matter how hard we try to believe it, a thin line of doubt will always run through our beliefs, what if this was all bullshit ? The question stays alive and kicking.

So when we start to expose the Equal Money system for what it is, an Equalizing tool to level the playfield for All,  exposing the hidden suppressed desire or guilt and shame of the Spiritual Ones, the fears and the resolve of never going back to look in self honesty at the point of Money and how we have already sold out long ago, resistance comes up. I am almost sure that many of them are not aware of what is the exact point they are yet unable to reconcile, it’s buried deep and the digging is not desirable not even for What is Best for All, let sleeping dog lie.

Those that don’t have enough probably fear of even “hoping” that a change may indeed be possible, they have worked so hard at accepting the mediocrity of their penniless reality that they would have to redefine reality by looking at their hidden fears again and expose them to themselves and that is bloody scary, yes they had been preaching Equality of some sort all their life, while they battled and suppressed their desires for ‘more’, their hopes to be finally one day ‘more Equal’ having accepted their Equal – Minus place in the world system as ‘the way things are’.  Wouldn’t then a system of Equal giving, a for-giving system be the absolute match to their belief system ? The physical representation lived in the practical of what spirituality is all about ?
The recognition of One Common essence, Life, running through all of us as Breath, One and Equal  and therefore the Equal right to sharing what the planet is giving for All ?

Instead This is not happening, consistently, I should add.  The reason is pretty clear, if I was never an Equal to start with, pretending to be more because I was not materialistic while all the while I suppressed my own self judgement of inferiority as a non achiever and a loser, I cannot conceive Equality as me because I was never an Equal to start with, I was just deluding myself inside a polarity between have and have-nots that made me suffer and I managed to leave behind.

Ultimately, that leads to Spirituality, there is a fear of death, the looking for an answer, a purpose, a reason to make sense of this Life experience, there must be a sense, what is the reason, why are we here ? And off we go with the stories, energy, consciousness, spirit, the afterlife, it’s just a ride, passing through, life is but the batting of eyelids, a moment in eternity and the list goes on infinitely to diminish the physical experience and make it unsubstantial. We survive embracing heavenly gossips and hear say of the ones that say they can see beyond the veil and either wrote or spoke about it, we failed to notice that none of them is looking beyond the same veil, because no afterlife report is equal to another one, we discount such earthly points like “lack of common sense” given that reporting should be Equal from whichever angle you look at something but just considering an added perspective, and not a complete reversal of stories, characters, paths and processes, just because WE WANT TO BELIEVE THERE IS VALUE IN THIS EARTHLY EXPERIENCE and we ended up hanging on to whatever fitted us best, whatever we saw could uplift us the most out of the physical reality of suffering and abuse.

So, where is the value of the earthly experience? If it’s in the AFterlife, we may have been had, didn’t they say As ABove So Below ?  This statement is pretty consistent across teachings so what makes us believe that unless we correct what is HERE, the AfterHere should be better ?

If the Below sucks, who can swear by the Godliness and Heavenlyness of the ABove ? What if the Above is Us without the Body, the Breath, what is in fact making Us Real and not imaginary thoughts and information floating in space ? What if the Physical was supposed to be Heaven Equal for All before the After can be heavenly lived  by All Equally?

Now this is a point that hurts. We spent our Lives wanting to believe in the benevolence of this Universe, this was the hardest point for me to let go, my idea of benevolence,  it still brought up tears just now, because benevolence as creation had to include me and my own benevolence, I was born good from a loving Creator, it was living that fucked me up.

Yesterday I saw a post on FB that made me want to reply, but I refrained because I felt anger and I had to address that anger first, the post was of a naked woman with one breast that survived cancer and the title was ‘Isn’t God good ?’ No, actually God is not good and if we use this example as God saving her then we must think he gave her cancer in the first place, if God created everything we have looong lists of very questionable creations that need explaining, so delusions in our attempt to hold on to an idea of benevolence are rampant and the hardest to let go, for me this was a key point to allow myself to face reality and there were many hidden and disguised points all around the same theme that came up for a while and I had to address consistently, regardless the fact that my self realization of reality started from precisely  this point.

When I joined Desteni my perception of myself had already shattered, I was on a mind overload, I was full of knowledge and information, you named it, I knew about it, heard about it, read about it, no practical application of anything, by that time I was on my knees with a self-created crippling addiction to Pot, my drug of choice to numb myself out of reality, and unable to hold any further delusion about myself, spirituality, LOA, Matrix Energetics, Quantum Physics and the Goodness ad benevolence of this experience and of the HereAfter.

The slippery slope started with the Conspiracy theorists, I bumped on some information about cure for cancer, and found that a few had claimed to be able to cure it and had been persecuted, isolated and threatened and some killed, from there the Benevolence of a planet in which I participated with my cancer research support, charity balls, upholding the benevolence of Humanity and all that bullshit just came tumbling down like a castle of cards.

There was no benevolence I could still see in a world where we kill each other, abuse each other, withhold a cure for a deadly disease, rape, torture, poisoning of food, water, Big Pharma, mind control of  humanity for consumerism, tied each other down through an economic system of enslavement, the Borgia would be shocked to see how far we took their teachings of manipulation and power crimes. Humanity was in a state of mess, spirituality became just another obvious delusion in the face of a Profit driven world that I had fully embraced and learnt how to make it work, for me.

So benevolence of the system was the first point to go (on the surface) and then benevolence of me as a proficient system participant went next. Desteni already knew all of this, I did not have to crawl there and confess that I was just as non benevolent as the rest of the world, they did not care for crawling Human beings, they cared for those that would stand up from the crash of the acknowledgement of their abusive inner nature and would stand up for what is best for All, they were putting together people who had self realized a need for self correction and offered tools to walk a process of undoing the participation in and as the system of abuse to rewrite a program of Oneness and Equality that would work under the principle of What is Best for All.

There is no guidance in this process but a Self Honest approach to where one stands in need for correction and how to go about it, no one can self correct on our behalf, we put the shit in our Minds and charged it with emotions and feelings and breathed it into Life as the Breath of Existence, we are the only ones that can undo it, this creation is the representation of our inner worlds, of what we have accepted and allowed One and Equal to ourselves, each one of us is a living Hell as a self-imposed judgement within a debt system for the creation of separation and having taken it so far.

We are releasing Self Judgement as who we are, it’s in our self judgement as the Court that condemned us and others to such existence that this world has taken Life from our Breath into existence, we’ll have to breathe it back, self correct it and re-breathe it and rebirth it into Life, there is no way out of this but to walk backward what we have birthed into existence.

The All There Is is HERE, this is it, nothing exists but us, nothing will correct us but ourselves, it’s time to let go of our delusions, It’s Bad For Ya, as George Carlin said, but in fact it’s bad for all of us, this is the price of Oneness, we are tied to each other in this self-destructive stance, we have condemned each other to a Life of starvation while we starve ourselves, from Life, from being all that we could have been, from being One and Equal instead than separated in 7 billion little pieces, and now in Oneness we’ll have to wait for each piece to catch up, to bring back the Wholeness of Oneness, and this can only happen through Equality, Unequal pieces cannot fit the puzzle, and until we stand up for Equality the world stands as the big damn puzzler we have become.

Unravel yourself to become an Equal so you too may stand as the solution to what the world is and the correction that is needed to manifest a new world, drop spirituality, drop anything that prevents you from seeing that unless you make yourself an Equal, we’ll have to wait for you and this process will be delayed and we will have to suffer more just for that one piece that was not willing to realign and come back to Equality.

Equality  is the way Home, we have to move slowly to allow all the pieces to catch up, to allow Equal chances for the necessary Self realization that we are in fact in a process of correction, making a U-turn, steering the wheel from Inequality to Equality, from Separation to Oneness, You are not the Mind as Thoughts Emotions and Feelings, This is NOT who you are, unless you insist on believing it, or you could in one Breath realize that you are Life, Equal and One, please try,  Breathe, Realize Who You Are, so we may all go Home.

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2012: Back to Black

I met my neighbour today while going out for a walk. I was wearing a bright windjacket, green and purple, she told me I was smart, the Italian way, meaning I looked funny, not in fashion, slightly out-of-place.

I know I am out-of-place in a fashion country wearing clothes that the establishment has not declared ‘in’ for the season, green and purple belong to the mountains, out of a grim and somber city like Milan, but I don’t care, I will not buy a new windjacket when I have one that works perfectly fine as a windjacket  just because I’m colour disapproved, I can live with that.

My neighbour said something else which brought up a flood of remote memories of my childhood, when I said ‘I know I should be wearing black’, like everyone else, the smart office ‘in’ people, she said that she only likes black on the plumper ones, the skinny ones look too thin, because black is the magical thinning colour, it makes you disappear in inches and gives that ‘Mortisia Addams’ look that expresses just what everyone is going through, the living dead, we brough the black outside for everyone to see.

She mentioned as well that she doesn’t like black, it’s the colour of mourning, and she recalled that when she was a kid around 10 years of age, her mother went to visit her to the summer camp all dressed in black, as a sign of respect for her brother who had just passed away. She asked, do you remember the ‘tight mourning dressing code’?

Funny, until she asked, I didn’t, then this flow of memories came rushing through my mind, of course I do. When I was a kid we had a  dressing code for mourning, it was stricter in the South of Italy and it became diluted coming up the peninsula partly due to our French and Austrian domination, we were less bound to religious and cultural rules, the South had an arabic domination, in Sicily many public signs still have the double language, and even the food can tell about their arabic inheritance. Dominations, welcome or not, are hard to let go.

The mourning dressing code demanded that for close members of the family, mother and father, brothers and sisters, children, husband and wives, strict mourning should be applied, that implied all black for women, including underwear and pantyhose, no jewellery except the wedding ring, no make up, no public appearances except for Sunday mass, forbidden to remarry or give up the strict mourning code for 10 years. For the males, 1 year of strict mourning, black tie, black button, black band on the arm, forbidden or frowned upon to remarry before the end of the strict mourning time. All the other relatives commanded a light mourning, one year for women, at discretion for men. Even with death women were asked to suffer more, longer, with more commitment to pain and suffering.

After a certain age inside big families especially, people kept dying, a brother, a parent, a child, so the mourning clothes never came off, mourning years had to be added, like a prison sentence and this is why in old pictures of Italian women that one can see in American movies they all wore black.

I cannot recall when this changed exactly, I know that even in the South, due to migration and mixing with other cultures mourning is no longer strict, one interesting thing that I noticed though is that black has moved forcefully into the lives of everyone else, the apparently non mourning ones, fashion is a huge supporter of bringing black into the everyday scene.

This is interesting because when I was a kid, black was a non colour, nobody wore it, we never had any black clothes except for the ones we had to have to go to funerals, any other colour at funerals would simply be bad taste and unacceptable, the sign of someone wanting to steal the thunder from the dead, not noticing that a dead had the thunder stolen by death and would not mind a little colour competition. Yes, because the only one allowed to have coloured clothes, was the corpse.

Our existences are developing from the end to the start of the Pleasantville movie, we started coloured and we went sepia first, by sucking out the life of our physical bodies and we turn grey at death, in between now, everyone wears Black, especially in the big cities, Black is Back, we have made official our state of mourners of the Lives that passed us by and we never lived.

We have lost ourselves inside the Mind, filled ourselves with memories, ideas, opinions, traumas, suffering, blame, guilt, shame and we no longer recognise ourselves, we have given up on ourselves, decided we were not even worth the challenge and resigned to our ability to change to go back to Life, instead we went Back to Black.

There is a way out, we have to give up everything and anything that we have defined ourselves as and we lived into existence, anything that we gave Breath to and that was not Life, the personalities that we designed to cope and that we use to play at life, that makes us likeable, acceptable, praised, respected and dead, we gave up our lives for Sex and Money.

The world is run by these 2 forces, we should stop fooling ourselves giving ourselves stories to believe, we keep claiming the magic word “Love’ hoping that all the bad, the negative, the very things we have created and breathed into existence, the things we don’t want to see or be a part of, will magically go away, we exchanged “Avada Kadavra” with Love and we keep trying it out, we throw it at people, we make sand castles with it and hope to keep them up, until the next tide comes in, the next sorrow, the next thing we’ll give away of ourselves until there will be nothing left that can stand up and say Enough.

Black is our ultimate expression, in a world full of colours we wear the absence of it, the absence of life, the ultimate symbol and visual to tell each other, don’t bother, I’m dead already.

But we are not, underneath what and who we think we are, Self is there, the One Self that equals Life and is Equal in everybody in value and opportunity for change, the Self of each one of us that longs to express, to demolish this world of fake Capitals to return the Capital to Life, because Life is the Capital that everyone owns and was born with as and into, the choice to mourn the death of Life is a tragic one, Life is not dead, we are, in separation from everything that exists we experience sorrow and despair and hopelessness and our slow death, the death of a Life that is never taken until the last Breath, but is exchanged for the razzle dazzle glitters and sequins that we use to thread the stories of ourselves that were never real but in our imagination and that have built the prisons we are now convinced we will never be able to leave behind.

We are the keys to our own prisons, free yourself with Self Honesty and Self Forgiveness, you can build your Self Trust again, all our judgements of ourselves and others exist in our make belief worlds and castles, we built them, we know how to bring them down, there is only ourselves holding the key to our jails, we are the key, we’ll have to undo the spells we cast upon ourselves one  by one, walk our life stories backward until we see the door, we are the key, the spells and the door, we are All there Is.

Let’s give up our make belief worlds, let’s give up Black as a symbol of our mourning, we are not dead yet, let’s get back to Life instead.

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2012: Why meditation will never change the world

Yesterday I received a phone call from a friend and he told me that one of our common friends, a staunch meditator who used to spend up to 3 hours a day in the lotus position and to preach to anyone, who would care to listen, the benefits of such practice,  had a motorbike accident on the Thai island where I used to live. He lost all his teeth, broke 2 ribs and is now still recovered in a Thai Hospital without insurance.

Motorbike accidents are the first cause of death in Thailand, foreign tourists and residents in Thailand rent motorbikes just for the holidays and ride helmet free, for that picture perfect feeling of freedom. Serious accidents are usually something financially unplanned for by tourists or people who are living “outside or barely above the grid”, as they like to think of themselves, and when one has to face such an event, one will have to face  the ruthlessness of the Thai medical system for foreigners, the bills are prohibitive and without money upfront one cannot have access to medical care, some of my friends could be operated only due to the mercy of their friends advancing the cash on their behalf.

On the island where I lived taxi drivers would get a tip from the hospitals where they brought in a foreigner, Thai people are poor and they can’t suck their blood with hospital bills, but foreigners are a free war zone among hospitals who hope and bribe to get them to their ER first, competition is everywhere, among the bleeding and dying too.

I remember a few years ago when I studied meditation( a practice that never worked for me personally and I am just lucky for not having taken that particular dis-ease on board even though I am not privy to my own delusions like  positive thinking and Law of Attraction of which I was quite a devotee for many years), I read a funny note written by a woman who had embraced meditation as a way of life, she stated that while meditation can help for pretty much everything, if you have an accident and your nose falls off, you should not try to meditate it back but you should undergo surgery, she said not because you couldn’t,  just because surgery exists and we do what is most practical. What a sound advice.

I should let my friend meditator know, don’t try to meditate your teeth back, just go to a dentist, find the money, because that is another thing you cannot meditate yourself into, and fix yourself.

When I used to live on the island we had a few discussions about meditation, he used to support the idea that meditation can heal the world, I was in disagreement having  just landed with a Thud from the Law of Attraction delusion, and I can call it delusion out of personal experience, I took it all the way into practice, I did not work for 4 years, lived in blissful paradise, smoked pot all day and thought positively all the time, BUT I could not manifest Money, I thought about it, did the treasure maps, visualized myself having it, spending it, used all the Money techniques available to make it from thin air and it did not happen. Someone will say, I did not do it right, usually the ones who have the Money and would not, ever, take it this far to see if the teachings are really true, because if they were, I planned to teach it to the whole world, but they did not deliver. Instead I woke up from my delusions almost broke with no job, having cut myself out of the money-making system and having to restart from the bottom again.

Which is OK, because I have manifested this consequence for myself and I know I can walk out of here because I am an experienced rock bottomer, but as I see it today it’s just plain stupid that I had to make this real for myself to see the absurdity of my beliefs.

And so the same is for my friend now, he has landed back on the planet toothless and broken in more than one way, I’m sure he wont’ be meditating at the moment because he will be too busy getting practically out of this mess, looking for physical support that will range from first, finding the money, then finding the dentist, then healing well enough to be able to have credibility again as an energy healer, because it’s hard to convince prospect energy patients that you can do for them what you cannot do for yourself.

Here are the meditators Main Points :

The Starting Point: anyone who approaches meditation does so because they feel bad, this is an elementary clue, because if they felt good they would be out there living their lives and would not sit crossed legs for hours enduring excruciating uncomfortability trying to stop their thoughts

The Motivation: they have thoughts that they have realized they cannot control, and they don’t like them, they don’t like themselves within these thoughts, so they try to quiet their minds and by practice they delude themselves that ‘those nasty thoughts’ have gone away, but they did not, scratch a little and you’ll find them all, not one has gone, check for yourself and you will see

The Advertised Motivation: they say that they meditate to better themselves and  the world, this is not true, this is what they tell others so they won’t have to expose all the turmoil of their minds and feel belittled by how little control they really have over what goes on inside of them and all the terrible self judgement they try to cover up

The Evidence: the world is NOT getting better, they do not participate in reality so they don’t have to face this point, they don’t  watch the news, call people who try to point out numbers and facts ‘negative’ and with this very label they gain the right to not listen and feel self-righteous about why they do not, reality unfortunately doesn’t go away just by not looking at it, when you open your eyes reality is still there, facts and numbers are unchanged, only you have left for a while, check at the next landing and you will find everything totally unfazed. Meditation has no power on the physical reality, you may gain a better (fake) disposition that guarantees better (fake) relationships within the meditators world but that’s about it.

The Picture that represents meditation: I have chosen a picture to represent meditation, I found it interesting that most ‘meditation’ pictures are exactly like this one, a person in blissful isolation in paradise. The key word of meditation is I-SO-LAT-ION, and it is right, they are so late with the landing, the Earth needs all of us, no one should leave until we sort things out, not even, in fact especially not, in their blissful, deceiving minds.

I have seen all these points inside my self as well when I practiced positive thinking and Law of Attraction, I have been to gatherings across the world and saw always the same story, no one of us feels good all the time, it’s impossible, we were not designed this way, we are bi-polar in an energetic sense, each one of us through self investigation will be able to see the switches, how easy it is to flip from positivity to negativity and back, there is no stability within the mind and not ever a chance to get a constant consistent one, Stability is not of the Mind.

Meditation is just another self-serving tool to uplift oneself from the mess of this world, it’s a lift that takes the practitioners from the dungeons of their minds, up to the attic, but what is missed is that, no matter what one beliefs, preaches and tells others, nobody has yet left the building.

The building is Planet Earth, we are all in this together, no one can leave unless through death and guess what, whoo whoo, not even then.

Time to get real, check out a solution that will benefit All Humanity and All Living beings Equally. The mind has no solutions to offer, the solution is Here, within the physical, in the shared Breath of All where Equality and Oneness is already there waiting for us to catch up.

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2012: Jobless ? No worries, the Vatican is looking for Exorcists

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Today a very popular Italian weekly magazine titled the cover page ” Looking for Exorcists’ with a Priest making it to the cover page.

It’s been a long time since a Priest has been on the cover page of a magazine in Italy even when the talks were about pedophiles priests, the pictures was not allowed to be shown, for a form of ‘respect’ (for the priest).

So I found it interesting that it should be the Devil himself bringing back the priests into the Spotlight.

What’s going on ?

The cover article said that “Possessions” are on the increase, they count 500.000 people yearly asking for help to the Church with a 30% increase in the last 5 years between believers and NON believers, 20% of this numbers is made up by children, then 65% of women across all levels of wealth and education, having a degree is no longer a guarantee that you won’t be able to believe in the Devil, the Devil is everywhere, knows no social division, the Devil is Fair.

The men seem to handle the Devil better, they know they are the Devil themselves, they know what they think, how they debase women in their mind, how many times a day they think about fucking and abusing women they don’t even know or that are in a relationship with their friends and family members, it’s a ‘men thing’, amazingly it’s either a data that says men are more honest with themselves or they just bare the burden of their own thoughts words and actions better than women, children don’t count, they are dragged to exorcism due to non compliance, whenever their behaviour doesn’t fit ‘what they should be’ mum can blame it on the Devil and get the kids exorcised, the Catholic answer to Ritalin.

There are 300 active exorcists in Italy, many are old, they handle a maximum of 5000 cases a year but the waiting list gets longer every year, because one exorcism is never enough, some people may need exorcisms that last for years, it takes years sometimes to get the Devil to leave his prey alone :), this is why the University in Rome headed by Christ’s legionaires organizes every year a Master on Exorcism and Prayers to Freedom to form the new generations of Devil Busters priests. Doesn’t this make us question the power of God at the same time, that the Devil is obviously so superior he can decide to stay on for YEARS while some silly chanting and lating invocation is repeated ad nauseam to no effect ? If God was the Master of the Universe, one single All Powerful command from God & Associates and the Devil should retreat immediately overtaken by the Fear of God and leave with his tail between his legs. Doesn’t seem exorcisms are so effective after all, if you were going to a Dentist to pull out a tooth and he had you go back for years, how much trust would you have in him ? Does he really know what he is doing or is he just guessing ? Does he know his trade or is he just pretending ? Are we all just pretending ? Do we in fact Fear the Devil LESS than we fear ourselves and having to face what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become ?

And if the devil did exist, when he leaves a body, where does He go ? Is he defeated ? Seems hardly if exorcisms are on the increase, how many Devils are there ? Do they multiply ? Do they have children, baby devils that possess children ? Where do they live ?

Ever thought where is the Devil’s home if there should be one on Earth? Many did ask themselves this question and came to the obvious conclusion, WHERE WOULD YOU LIVE IF YOU WERE THE DEVIL ? If you were an Imaginary Polarity Figure representing the highest Evil in the World, wouldn’t you live where the Highest Imaginary Figure representing the Good of the World lived ?

Yes that’s right, inside the Vatican 🙂

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Father Malachi Martin knew for sure, he left the Jesuits at one point because the whole Good vs Evil battle was just too much, he could no longer bare it.

The Pope stayed on instead

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What would be Christmas without Satan..oops Santa ?

So the belief is that there is an Entity that dominates and controls us, The Evil Entity known as The Devil, Satan, Lucifer, that ‘makes us do evil stuff, that tempts us, that puts words in our mouths, plots in our heads, that wants us to struggle and suffer while he has a ball at our expenses.

The Devil is historically represented as the Serpent, the Serpent with the forked tongues, meaning what? Meaning a duality, which is what we all live. Movie series like Ally Mc Beal have been made to underline, expose and make ‘normal’ the secret voice that speaks non stop in our Minds, the secret voice that says nasty things while we show the good face, the secret voice that is keeping us busy up there in the head, and never Here, where Life really happens while we miss out on it by being away in the Hell we ourselves created in our Minds, wouldn’t be normal for people that spend so much time in Hell to believe in the Devil ?

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The only problem with this accepted and encouraged (by the Catholics) belief is that it makes us powerless, Yes, there is the advantage of the relief of having someone to blame, – fucking Devil, please God deliver me from him -, but what if the Devil was inside, what if this battle was already lost when we started engaging it, what if the Devil was the sum of all our judgements, ideas, beliefs and thoughts about good and evil that we have lived (opposite of Devil, how strange..) and breathed into existence, what if the Devil and God were Our Creation and not viceversa ?

Vittorio Feltri commented the exorcism article with this sentence:

“Literature has often documented the tough fight that each one of us puts up to not fall into the temptation to give in to Evil. Yes beltzebu’ is always scheming in the most secret places of our mind ready  to suggest the best way to trip someone, how to take a shortcut, how to trample someone’s rights on our quest for greed, how to be indifferent to the reasons of our hearts, cinical, cruel. It’s not true that the Devil possesses us, it’s us possessing the Devil and often we ask Him advises following them with pleasure, I have a suspect, what if WE were the Devil ? “

Yes, what if we were the Devil ? What if this world was the plain manifestation of our Polarity Play, what if this was the creation of our Sick Abusive Minds ?

Many have different theories about how this Creation came about, what if we had been lied to, conned into made up stories designed to never allow us to realize ourselves, what if someone knew how it all came about and has been out for some time to explain it but nobody listened because everyone was too lost inside their personality play and the Beliefs and Ideas of ‘Who they really Are (or wish to be)’ ?

You want to know who you really are ? Really ? Here is the whole story

How this Creation came about and Why

So if you think you are God without acting like one, or the Devil, or that you are possessed, support yourself to release yourself from your own Polarity design, you are the One with the Keys to your Mind, exorcise yourself back to Freedom into Equality and Oneness. Give yourself a Chance to Live again, Give Life back to Yourself.

Breathe yourself back to Earth.

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2012: Why did I decide to walk with Desteni

I have asked this question to myself several times, especially at the beginning of this process, mainly because I perceived process to be a chore, something that would have taken everything from me in terms of commitment and application, something that, coming from a Catholic, background, I first associated with atonement, penance self-flagellation style and I resisted it with a passion (passion=suffering :)).

The first reason that brought me to Desteni was FEAR, I had developed an utter Fear for this reality realizing that nothing was what it seemed and that the awakening was not at all what it was cracked up to be, the awakening was just waking up to the utter abuse and destruction that was going on in this world, starting from myself.

My first post on the Desteni Forum said “do you people realize how much Fear you are spreading with your message ??”, and I meant it in CAPITAL LETTERS, because this is what I felt when I found them, I had woken up in a reality that was far from Love and Light, I had tried to slide back into my positive thinking stance unsuccessfully and then Desteni, after hearing their message at first I even went to a Shaman, to try to take their message out from me, like a curse, I had been cursed into self responsibility and now the curse – and not my refusal to stand up -was eating up my Life.

In one clear sentence, I moved into Desteni with much resistance, NOT to the message but to the task, I hated the idea of having to become Self responsible, first because I was not even close to believing I could EVER be a Self Responsible being, second because so much of me was invested (and so much money was spent) in support of utter bullshit that made me feel good that I perceived Desteni would be my undoing, in terms of stability, I perceived that while I had always walked the thin line of crazy, if I did join them that would be it, I would turn into a total nutter.

The first reply I got from one of the people on the Forum was ‘ we are NOT spreading Fears, Humanity has been living in fear forever, we are merely pointing this out’, don’t shoot the messenger…

But I knew different, when I would listen to Bernard’s vlogs, his voice scared the shit out of me (only later I saw he literally scared MY fear/shit OUT OF ME), it’s interesting to look back now because I kept going back for more, some of his messages I couldn’t even understand, it was like I lacked a common sense vocabulary to HEAR what he was really saying never mind understanding the purpose of why he was saying what he said in such a passionate way.

I brought my polarity mindset all the way into Desteni, I would listen to Bernard and get scared shitless and utterly terrified and then I would listen to Sunette Spies and find some balance again, it was like the bad cop good cop game, one gave  it to me typhoon style, the other helped me pick up the pieces after the devastation I perceived in the post-Bernard moments, at the time Sunette was almost always expanding on the brief shocking vlogs of Bernard and I found I wanted both, the shock and the leniency of the aftershock.

I pushed myself to go through the material, I had already realized I was a system and many of my studies were in that direction, in fact a specific direction, why a system can’t change, what is the driving force behind all of this existence, because I could actually see myself switching personalities and being driven into action, words, thoughts by them, I was a car at full speed with no one at the driving seat.

Not to talk about Equal Money, in fact at the beginning Equal Money was my biggest bugaboo, I didnt’ understand it, I didn’t see how it could be possible, I just received it as a mere wish to put on my wish list of unattainable things.

One day I read on the Forum ‘you cannot understand Equal Money without Self Forgiveness and Self Honesty’, this too took me a while to place into a contest I could first understand and then experience.

Given my background brainwashing I carried huge resistance for the ‘Self Forgiveness ‘ approach, I read everything offered about it, I tried to clear the Self Forgiveness tool through self forgiveness, but the lists of Self Forgiveness on the Forum looked disturbing, like self-flagellation in action, exposing all of yourself for a life review for which you took the blame, for which you declared how faulty and disgusting you  had been. I joined in, I had my own list to share, it felt humbling and even humiliating at times, I was nowhere close to ‘feeling good’ through process even though by then I had understood that feelings and emotions were polarity expressions of the Mind, I still longed to feel good because ‘feeling good’ had been my driving quest for over 20 years, this was a bit of a hard habit to kick but the freer I become from feelings and emotions the more stable I perceive myself, no longer on the swing from feeling bad to feeling good, what a bloody relief !

It took me a while to understand Self Forgiveness in itself, in general I can say it took me a while to understand the process because it’s only recently that I got it as a point I have actually walked into through self directing myself to just STOP for real, and that’s when I got it and saw some changes because it was never about the blame and about self-flagellation, nope, that was what I was doing before process, it was about standing up and stopping it all, Self Forgiveness  was the delete/reset button of the system, for-giving me back to me from the separation I had allowed and accepted as me, because it was such separation that made me sick and self abusive, because separation implies you don’t want to take back ALL of you into you and correct it, because you still hold extensive judgements about Yourself that you have not yet forgiven, integration and wholeness  cannot happen in self judgement, self forgiveness was the self judgement/others judgement removal tool, it was to clean the slate for real, so I could rewrite on a blank slate who I want to be, what I want to support, what do I stand for.

As well self forgiveness gave me a tool to stop abusing myself and others, a tool that I am still using because as a system much in me is still automated in the process of being corrected, at the beginning of this process I made a few miss-takes, I had just switched polarity, I went from an absolute positive thinker to a lousy negative wreck, looking at myself like if I were the scum of the earth until I realized, I have not yet left the building, the Matrix, it’s about getting out of this construct as me, the Mind, because within the Mind I exist ONLY in polarity, there is no chance for me to wrestle my mind to the ground, I have to embrace me, not what I thought about me, not what I believed about me, but embrace me the thinker, the emotional reactor, embrace the separation until it dissolves and I can equalize myself inside with the outside.

Just recently process has become easier for me, I finally got it, it’s the very opposite of self-flagellation, it’s about stopping the self-flagellation by for-giving myself and from there start to walk self honestly no longer in self-interest but with a leading principle, to consider all existence, One and Equal to myself. I can say looking back that this was what self honesty and self forgiveness did for me, they made me realize how much hate I had for myself, for the way I lived and the words I spoke and my interactions with others, only when I saw it exposed clearly I could begin to stop.

It’s about stop believing that I am more because I feel less or feeling less and then desiring to be more, when I breathe and I am Equal to everything and everyone else, the struggles fall, the mind tantrums stop and I catch a break, and it’s in these breaks that I caught because of what Desteni taught me that I have started to Breathe again. Literally.

The reason why I stuck with them is because even when I was a demented addict I could not discount their message, it’s so simple, give what you would like to receive, embrace all Life as You and you will be All Life, One and Equal, what’s there to NOT SUPPORT in the Message of Equality?

Ultimately I stuck with Desteni because nothing else made sense, if the message doesn’t include Oneness and Equality it  cannot be real, if we are One we must be Equal, if we are Equal we must be One, all the other teachings are just lip service to the religion of self in self-interest and in separation from everything that exists.

So for those drawn to Desteni that fear like I did about what you will lose, what you will have to give up, the answer is NOTHING, NO THING you will give up was ever real, NO THING you will give up was ever useful and best for all, in fact those were the very things that kept us enslaved, separation is a bitch, it’s through separation that we got where we are today, if we had remembered our Oneness and Equality we would have never done to each other what we did.

Some parts of us are struggling and suffering, it doesn’t need to be this way, we can give ourselves back to ourselves to become the whole that is One and Equal to Life, the suffering must stop inside each one of us, the wars, the conflicts, the blame, the hatred, when we begin to realign to what is best for all we stop all delusions of separations and we HEAL and the world Heals one and Equal to us.

Equal Money is just the next common sense step, it was born out of looking for a way to uplift the One and Equal with one strategic common sense move, giving Equal Access to Money, the Living God that grants access to all resources, to everyone Equally, it would be the fastest easiest way to accomplish this because the infrastructures are already in place, it’s the source/value of the Money system that must change, when Money Equals Life and Life becomes the Capital that invests in the planet that’s when real change can happen, profit won’t be based in self-interest anymore, profit will be what each of us will receive for our investment in Life One and Equal, we will all live in abundance and we will be proud of the world we will have built and will leave behind.

Don’t leave Money to your children and your loved Ones, leave them a Better World, that is Real Love in Action that considers the Best for All in Equality and Oneness.

Support the practical solution that will bring all the pieces back together, Stand up for Life One and Equal.

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2012 The LOA and the Illuminati led me to Desteni

My story of how I came to Desteni is a bit convoluted because I started as a staunch follower of Abraham Hicks and the Law of Attraction and for years I had disciplined myself to ‘think positively’ and to repress and suppress the negative thoughts – because they never really, went away, buggers – and I used Pot as well to push them down deeper because I wanted so much to believe the story that the Universe is a loving place and we were given an emotional guidance system as a sign of such loving force.

I had to battle a few common sense questions at the beginning which were: if this is the Truth of reality, why doesn’t everybody know about it, why is it a Secret, why don’t we teach it in school and now to the hungry people so they can get food and whatever they need ?

Through ‘my belief’ in the Law of attraction I had some success, at least I believed it was because of the LOA and not by my personal investment, obviously the system is designed to reward happy slaves and not grumpy ones, so by my ‘forced happiness’ I managed to get myself good jobs and a good life while I kept at bay all my friends with a ‘negative attitude’ in fear to be contaminated and having to lose the touch of Grace that I had with much struggle, built for myself.

This was another point that I questioned about existence, it seemed to me that everyone had had traumatized  lives, when everyone would participate in what Carolyn Miss defined as woundology, the wounds of the others never seemed so much better than mine, so this other question of an existence of suffering was something I suppressed because I could not find a logical answer to this, why would a loving Universe have people born and traumatized, really, what was the point that I was missing ?

The teachings of Abraham anyway always made sense to me, I made them make sense because they did  in fact make me feel better, by uplifting me out of my own responsibility for this world, One and Equal to me, I embraced the belief that we all came to experience something Here in a kind of  ‘Game’  just to have all the views and first hand experiences  of existence first hand so to speak and that was it, then back to Heaven.

Four years ago I left my well paid job in Asia and went to live on a tropical island in Thailand, I had two main objectives, one was to heal myself from my crippling addiction and underlying never died depression for which I self medicated with Pot, the other was to understand reality, as well I said to myself, now that I had mastered the LOA I would multiply my money and then I would be free to do whatever I wanted, I wasn’t a bit interested in ‘other people’s experience’ because as Abraham said, their life is ‘their Pie’ never mind what other people decide to put in ‘their Pie’, you mind  your own Pie’, and so I -conveniently- did.

Of all of the Abraham teachings only one thing stood out for me one day, when Abraham said that when we desire something it’s already there 99% of it, we just need to align to make the 1% missing step to get it. This puzzled me extensively because I saw that, if this was true, what did He mean ? But he had explained that what he meant was that the Universe knew better than us what we truly wanted and had already prepared it there for us, we just had to align with it. Still, this sentence stood out of all the teachings as an ‘anomaly’.

When I was on the island I quit Pot and relapsed and quit and relapsed and went on like this for 3 years, every time I relapsed I fell harder into oblivion, it was clear that I had engaged a self destruct mechanism somehow and I just wouldn’t let it go, I wrote lists of my excuses to smoke Pot, did chanting, went on  marijuana Anonymous Forums, took a drug coach from the UK for guidance but the Pot call was always the strongest, I didn’t want to exist, I longed to obliterate myself into non-existence as soon as I could, no matter how many ‘positive thoughts’ I indulged in a day, the hole was always there, ready to swallow me.

This hole was like a black spiral, when I was a kid I faced it every night just before falling asleep, I would feel myself slip away spiralling into the black hole and many times I had to open my eyes and grab the bed trying to not give in to the feeling of being sucked into nothingness.  Me and the black hole had become quite close quite soon in my life experience.

So, during my stay on the dream island I set out to study,  I studied everything I could find on addictions, molecular nutrition, theories about vitamin deficiencies, the unconventional routes and the very unconventional ones, I listened to all the channelers to see if anyone had any clue of why I was such a wreck, At one point I bumped into Bashar as well who said ‘that everything you may think of or desire already exists somewhere’, oh boy, there we went again, so now the doubt of this existence as a maze in which I could only pretend to move and make choices came up again, if I wasn’t really free to think up something or imagine it from scratch because it already existed, where was my creative power all these love and light channelers were bragging about ? Then I was not a creator, I was a human magnet, attracting to myself experiences already thought up and designed in detail by someone else, while others, the poor bastards – as one of my friends boss used to call the ‘ less fortunate’ -, they would have to take the crumbles of our first class choices.

Polarity bothered me, when they introduced the concept of the Quantum Field, where everyone saw this amazing infinite creative power, I saw the limitation of a field, a cosmic soccer field, where everyone was kicking each other around,  limited by the definition of ‘field’  itself, a field cannot be infinite come-on, you can have a very big field, an extremely big field a gigantic field but not, ever, an infinite one, infinity cannot be defined by a field because it’s infinite = not  finite !

Meanwhile wasted time went on, I was using up my money because I was sure I could manifest truckloads being I was soo positive, I would say the right words to everyone at all times, but there was a piece missing about my interaction with others which was my secret mind I could say ‘you look lovely’ and leave out the ‘BITCH” part that went on in my head, in fact the more I wanted to be positive and see only the good, the more my backchat became vicious, I was ashamed of the thoughts that went on in my mind but consoled myself thinking that everyone had them, it was normal, important is to not engage them suppress them deep enough –    which is  like trying to wrestle a thought into the ground for the win, an impossible feat – and you will be fine.

The money wasn’t manifesting though, this was annoying because I had gone to the tropical island with much fanfare about my manifesting a grand future for myself, instead I was living like a shameful recluse pissing my money away and drowning deeper and deeper into my Pot addiction with no solution in sight.

At that time I spent extensive hours on the net, mainly because I was unable to do anything else except going for treatments to all  the island healers trying to keep my elusive balance just enough to be able to exist.

I bumped onto a video of Sunette/Desteni the first time 3 years ago, it was about Demons, it scared the shit out of me and I felt sorry for this girl/boy who was obviously possessed, and moved on.

My researches led me to see that there was something terribly wrong going on with the world that I had never noticed in the years I was away on the Love and Light Cloud, I discovered that cancer cures were suppressed , that our water was fluorinated not for good health but as a poison, that the mercury in our teeth was poisonous to the brain, that the GMO foods whose life cycle chains had been broken lacked nutrition, that sugar and aspartame affected the brain, that vaccines were deliberately contaminated, all of these things came up one after the other until the picture of this world looked so bleak that I wanted to die. it was not just the story, it was the thought that someone BIG must have thought up and designed a sort of  plan against humanity, because these could not be coincidences, one can poison the water by mistake, but not everything we have to use daily including the air, it was the deliberateness of it all that felt disheartening, what had humanity come to for Money ?

While I kept watching you tube for answers each point I opened was worse than the previous one and then I bumped onto a video called ‘who killed Michael Jackson’, it kept coming up until one day I watched it.

That video opened up the whole Illuminati New World story, the satanic worshipping, human sacrifices of children by the Elite, Satan in the Vatican, the Secret Societies, slowly I was paralyzed by fear , because when the story of MK Ultra and Mind Control and Michael Tsarion opened up, I still believed it was about other people out there, people they had access to, the Army, Hollywood, pawns used to harm and deceive but still the magnitude of the design left me feeling minute and powerless and alone, who the fuck would believe this and why is this going on while we are sleeping, why are we sleeping ? Are alcohol and Pot just some other sleeping tools, least we wake up and see how far we have gone into self-destruction and destruction of everything around us ?

At that point another video of Sunette popped up, it was the channeling of Anton Lavey, I had just read about him, because by that point it was clear to me, we were in Hell and nobody knew, better check with the demons worshippers and demons channelers to see what the fuck is going on.

When I watched the first video of Sunette that I could follow to the end,  I realized while she talked about breathing that I could barely breathe, it took me some time to overcome the initial shock and many videos to overcome the Fear because the puzzle completes only ‘when you watch whole of the damn material’, until then the pieces here and there can add to the confusion and to the feeling of hopelessness of this design (so watch the whole damn material before making up your mind).

I had understood that the Matrix was real, not a loving Matrix like the people of Matrix Energetics teach, nope, it was a terrifying web of deceit and lies, everything that I had learnt in my life was a Lie, this was quite a hard story to swallow.

It took me a few months to stabilize, I am quite new to the process but I can say that without this process and the information Desteni provided I would have died either of shame or of Fear or both.

Instead I managed to quit my Pot addiction using Self Forgiveness and Self Honesty and walking this process supporting myself with the example of others that had walked before me and had made it out of their self-destructive behaviours. I am working every day at stopping my participation within me as the Mind and stopping my reactions and blame games by bringing what bothers me back to myself as something I need to address by digging into the root cause of the design to deprogram myself. And I am learning to Breathe, would you believe that we can’t Breathe until someone comes along and points it out to us. I had never really breathed until I met Desteni, never breathed as Me as Breath.

Now I have learnt that all that exists is Self and I am learning how to bring back all the pieces of this broken world to me as me and give myself back to myself, obviously along the way into our creation we made a few miss-takes and we ended up in this pit of suffering and abuse in which we walk around like amnesiacs in a stupor. But we can correct our miss takes by becoming One again, and from that Oneness learn to give Equally to all the parts of ourselves that we have neglected and abused in our race to be winners and in our search for happiness as an experience of ourselves in separation from the whole. This is why we endorse an Equal Money System, in one single agreement we could undo our miss-taken stance of separation, with one true real act of compassion for all the parts of Self we would create heaven on Earth for everyone. This takes a while to see, at the beginning of my process I couldn’t even talk about it, it was just so far away from who I was, I had to close the gap between me the problem and me the solution to be able to see Equal Money=Equality as the solution, to see myself no longer as a wreck but a piece of the solution.

I can say is that I am glad I have found Desteni, I know others will walk the same slippery slope of the Illuminati and the New Wold and feel extensive Fear in separation from what exists Here, what I can say is that when we take back the responsibility of this creation the Fears diminish, the Fears are just bells that re-mind us we can’t have our cake and eat it, we can’t believe we are separate and get a good dandy life, because in separation there is misery and suffering and desire to self-abuse and to abuse others in self-interest.

There is only one road back Home, it’s Oneness and Equality, since I met Desteni I don’t feel as lonely as I used to yet I know I am alone and All One and it’s OK, since I met Desteni my Life is no longer a string of sad stories but a realization, that I can make it back Home because Home is Here, I was the one who left to go somewhere else, off into my Mind Make beliefs and fears, going Home is not a destination but a realization, it’s the Here-ness we left behind where all Life has always existed One and Equal.

Here never moved, Here never left, Here is where Life is and I will myself to be Here as Life, Breath by Breath, One and Equal to everything that exists for myself and All existence Equal and One.

Desteni

Equal Money System