2012: Nothing that happens inside of me can be blamed on others

It has taken me some time to make this realization mine, meaning at some level I got it from the beginning when I joined the Desteni Process, but it was just knowledge and information.

I was comfortable with knowledge and information given I have accumulated truckloads within my lifetime and so when I met Desteni at the beginning I treated everything they said just as how I treated everything I have done before, the difference was that within this process there was work to do, still I filed it as knowledge and information, isn’t that what we do with information, file it for future use.

All the philosophies I had met until then showed me there was nothing I had to do,  I liked that a lot, they said I was already Divine, The Source, I just had to ‘bask in bliss’, follow ‘my bliss’, ‘think positive and stay positive’ and that was it.

The problem came when I started to have troubles generating the ‘blissful feeling’ I was supposed to follow, because let’s face it, everything that happens inside of me is generated by me, it must be, since there is only me doing the thinking inside of me that generates the feelings I experience. Even Law of Attraction tells you that your feelings are generated by your thoughts, so why is it we can take the credit for being positive thinkers and then blame others when we are feeling shitty ?

When I met Desteni they suggested and stated clearly that ‘I had to stop the thinking‘ to realize what I was generating and then living out as a consequence of my thinking, plus they said, you have to take response-ability for what happens inside of you.

This sucked big time, first because the aspect that ‘there was work to do’ was obvious, no matter how hard I tried the ‘filing for future use’  it bugged me, because it was not file-able knowledge since the message was constant and consistent about ‘the work that had to be done’ and as well because I had designed myself in a way that worked for me within the World Accepted Blaming Game, I could always blame another, it started with my family, they taught me that I was responsible for how they felt around me, I believed it, and so then I made them responsible for how I felt around them, logical isn’t it ?

But it was not true for them and it was not true for me, I was not responsible for how they felt around me and they were not responsible for how I felt around them, how could they be response-able if it’s up to me to respond, if the response is coming from me how can they take response-ability for it ?

Now that I write it out it seems maddening but it’s true, all of us believe this, and since I designed myself around these experiences of blame, my life became a blaming game.

We then grow up, that’s the ‘fun’ part about ‘life’, because we just grow up literally, we become another size but we don’t change the imprinting at the base of how we behave, we just become better at placing blame, more subtle, more convoluted, more sly in the way we place the blame on others using the right mix of words that will allow us to believe that we are NOT in fact doing “that thing” we so hated when our parents did it to us.

So we become an upgraded version of our parents, we beat them at their own game, we outsmart them in the blame game, we grow to build our outsmarting vocabulary as a life purpose because we understood this is what everybody is doing so we better get good at it.

Recently I have seen this very clearly within myself, when I tell my life story I have to be very careful to not move automatically within me as the Mind into this particular personality because it’s a clever personality, sometimes I can con-vince myself that it’s true what me/she says, I can see the pity path she is laying out with flare for me to walk and I have to do like when you go for cross-country skiing, for those that never tried, cross-country skiing is done by putting your sky inside a predefined track, which is about 10 cm deep, then you just push yourselves within the tracks with your sticks.

If you see you wish to change track you need to stop, lift your foot one at the time out of the track and move into the fresh snow (which requires some strength) to go and join another track.

In this process I feel this way, the stopping of the automated behaviour is exactly like changing track on the cross-skiing field, the difference is that you have to keep moving on the fresh snow, the one that is trackless because this is what self-expression is all about, it’s about threading a new path for yourself where there was no path and you cannot use the same tracks again because life never repropones exactly the same scenario, so you will have to move out of the tracks into fresh snow every single time and just learn the fresh snow skiing as a way to move, through an act of self-will that leads to self-expression.

At the moment I am still moving out of tracks, I guess if I were really cross skiing they would send someone to talk to me to explain how cross skiing is done, because I would look quite demented trying to move out of the easy tracks continuously and skiing on the fresh snow which is how I feel often during process for the time being, due to my own judgement that ‘I don’t know what I am doing’ which is exactly the point, I am de-menting myself, in the literal sense of the word, taking my mind out of the equation of how I approach everything in life and this feels a bit disconcerting and totally new.

I have 2 examples I am living in the moment, 1, the redefinition of my relationship with my mother or who I am within it, all considering, meaning the time that I had invested until now in who I was within that relationship, I can see I have moved stuff quiet fast, still I have a feeling of lostness, because she doesn’t want to communicate with the new me, funny because this is the first time in my life when I no longer see her responsible for all my shit, so it would be the best time to try out our new relationship but she has closed the door. I know it’s temporary and I catch myself wanting to feel disconcerted as a sort of a duty, as a good daughter facing this kind of conundrum should feel, but it’s not real, I do it because I fear feeling guilty for my ‘lack of feelings ‘ toward her, like I should feel sorry but I don’t BUT I should. So for now I am doing nothing, not out of spite, just because I don’t know what to do, I have opened the door and said’ then get in touch when you want to see me’ and left it at that. When I see thoughts coming up about how displeased she is at me and how I know it, I stop myself and tell myself I have not pushed her away and I am here as I said to her in case she needs anything but I don’t want to participate in who I was, I have just closed that door, the door of recrimination and explanation that will lead to me possibly engaging in useless lengthy explanations on ‘how come I am not struggling while I KNOW how BAD she feels’ since I don’t have an explanation she can hear at the moment except that since I no longer blame her I  have given up not only mine but her asserted right to blame me for how she feels and so when she blames me I don’t feel anything anymore, I feel more surprised than angry at both of us and how could we ever believe that bullshit about another ‘making us feel anything’ without our acceptance and participation and this is not what she is fishing for. So I understand this is a time of adjustment where patterns will have to drop on both sides because patterns are kept alive by 2 sides crocheting the same design with 2 crochets and if one drops the crochet the thread falls apart.

Point 2, my new job, I am designing a new project for a company that I can see it could be very successful because it covers many niches I have identified within the Italian market that could do with some organizing help for the internationalization of their products. In this I face a few points of beliefs of faults within the system that I am now using to bring back to myself, the main points were, can’t trust the system, fear of the system, won’t be able to access the European funds because everyone is dishonest and corruption is rampant so they designed the system just to play among themselves, and the new relationship with my potential business partner.

So the first points were quite clear I don’t trust myself, I fear myself, I fear the system as myself because in the past I have made up rules and ways to always have the upper hand, so I applied self forgiveness while I was approaching these specific offices on these points and I found, surprisingly, that I had a lot of unexpected help once I cleared myself as the system and got a lot of important information and have already booked myself into step 1 that will take place next Tuesday for the procedure of accessing funds for new entrepreneurial activities since I had already done my homework and seen I fit into ALL of the requirements for new enterprises funding, like being a woman over 45, unemployed, with a good entrepreneurship idea in the service field.

My new girlfriend and potential business partner is another story, first she has the same name of my ex best girlfriend, which in itself felt like a point I have to face still, like something was left to clear about that, even though I have done a lot of clearing and her name doesn’t bring up reactions so much anymore, but the interesting thing is how we both entered into our automatic roles, I the leader and she the assistant. I know why this is happening because as I stated before, women in Italy are groomed only for ‘assistant’ roles, so while I developed leadership roles abroad, outside of the Italian pattern, she has not yet had that chance. Interesting because I did not push her into this role as I want an equal partnership and I have no doubt she would be willing to put in the same amount of time, but we did not have to talk about what were our roles as she has already assumed somewhere in her mind that I am the boss. I still did not feel more than her, I felt that we were both doing equally what each one of us does best, and this was interesting because I have seen how much judgements of roles I have removed and how less bothered by simple tasks I am. One thing though almost bothers me, I know she is not in process and so I will have to be the one bringing out everything in the open about every aspect of the business and what we expect from each other and what kind of company would be best. At the moment all the planning I have done has been equally in the interest of both and in the interest of the company and how can we make it work, I saw that I have not in my mind played any game of how I can have more or how to take advantage of the situation for myself and it has been an interesting exercise for me to consider for the first time how to create a structure where everybody wins, suppliers, clients and both of us and what is best for All too, because this is what I am good at and there is no reason to discard everything in process but just to reset all the starting points so that what is best for All is considered.

In this I considered, that what is best for me is to get back into the system since I know how to do that, to design a company with consideration of all parts involved where no one is abused, of course this has to bear in mind that we are all still living and working within an abusive system, because in reality, until we change the Capitalistic model into a model that supports All Equally we live the abuse, but if I am not able to support myself I live the abuse as me cutting myself out from the very system that if I instead approach as the system I can live as me and change as me as I go along.

Meanwhile it’s clear to me that we at Desteni need Money, we need Money to make the message heard, to go public in a way that can reach the ones that have not heard this opportunity for change as well and I cannot contribute effectively unless I do what I know how to do, which is designing businesses that work within this current business model, so the point that many of us will have to face is how do we reconcile our self-righteousness about NOT wanting to participate in the system with changing the system ? Because I have faced this point for a few months, while I moved around shuffling my feet and thinking ‘I don’t want to participate anymore in this sick game‘ instead of saying I am the sick game that needs changing and there is nothing outside of me but my accepted and allowed reality.

So, as part of my process of pulling my socks up and get moving once I had made up my mind things started to roll, for the first time in months one person, in the specific this woman approached me at the GYM and she was an expert in Fears (interesting misspelling I meant Fairs, even though I can see at the moment she is an expert in Fears too :)) and Exhibition which will be one of the key points of my new business, plus she has been kicked out of a very high level position within the public administration and knows all the people who move the system in Milan, while I have knowledge of international business and how to make it all work.

So, when we pull our socks up and make decisions about participating in the game it’s not that life changes, I change and the system as me changes to move the cards that I need to play, it was my decision not to play, this is an important point that many of us will face regarding having an occupation, I have really liked one of Avery’s post about selling being an honourable business, because this is the key, nothing is as it is without us being who we are, so when I become honourable I can only build an honourable business as a reflection of me as Life, as wanting to take everyone into consideration because the world will not change by us taking on the Desteni information and pointing fingers at everything and everyone out there, that’s just the blaming game all over again with a clever twist, we made it ‘Desteni’ certified, so now we have added one layer of fuckedupness to the whole story, we have turned into Desteni warriors, but still war it is.

Instead it is about taking the information provided, stopping the pointing fingers to the system because this is still separation, instead accepting the system as one as me, stopping the fear and educating ourselves on how to move effectively, no longer as antagonist in war, but as partners in change, where what I do reflects who I am molding myself to be and one piece at the time we realign the system to the truth that what is Best for All is ultimately what is Best for Everybody everywhere.

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I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame what is outside of me as the cause of what goes on inside of me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the system as something to take on , instead of seeing I fear myself as something to take on because I have not accepted myself as the system I am so that I can change myself as the system I want to be and see outside of me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel justified to attack the system and blame the system in separation of myself instead of seeing the system as a partner that one and equal to me lost its way and is now realigning to what I am realigning myself as which is Oneness and Equality and what is best for All

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to speak words against the system’s corruption and unfairness instead of realizing I am speaking words against my own corruption and unfairness

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that there is no place for me in the system instead of realizing that if I am the system I must bring myself Here and the system as me Here for realignment with Oneness and Equality

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to condemn myself for my own corruption and unfairness

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to fear my new state of ‘not feeling’ because I had allowed and accepted myself to associate existing with ‘having feelings’ and I fear not existing

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project myself in future business scenarios because this is what I was told you have to do when planning a business instead of seeing I don’t need to go anywhere in my mind since my mind has no solutions but I need to get physical, gather practical information and evaluate them in the moment in my Hereness where I don’t need any future projection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that the system is designed to fuck people because I have fucked people in my life as a result of having been fucked

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear I might fall back into old business patterns of power and desire to abuse instead of seeing I cannot fall unless I decide to fall

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not trust the system because I do not trust myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not trust myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the abuses of the system instead of seeing I fear the abuses of me as the system and that I can stop existing one and equal to abuse done and received

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that since I do not have a ‘government approved’ system education I must fear to be exposed as a liar for claiming one instead of seeing I am claiming an education that I have built for myself through my own experience that doesn’t need a government approval

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that the system is too big for us to take on instead of seeing that if nothing exists outside of me, the system too must exist as me and I am not too big for myself to take on

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear having to borrow money to start a business because I accepted and allowed myself to fear debt as something that was taught to me by the system to make sure I would repay what I have accepted and allowed was due by me in my accepted life of credits and debts

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear having debts as something that diminishes me instead of seeing that big corporations are full of debts and comfortable with it, so it’s just myself diminishing myself through my accepted and allowed beliefs that people with debts are worth less than people with money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think ‘what will my mother think if she knows I have borrowed money for a business start-up ?” instead of seeing I don’t care about my mother but I am just using her to show myself there is a point inside of me showing me that I care that people know I have debts that diminish me in comparison to those that have no debts

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the judgement of myself as a debtor because I accepted and allowed myself to see debt as something ‘bad’, instead of seeing that borrowing money to start a business is a normal business practice and that I am wide awake and will be able to evaluate the risk involved and the potential consequence and make sound decisions about what to do

2012: Good Karma on Sale. Got Money ?

With what is going on in the world lately, I have recently been looking at how and why did I ever believe in Karma. In the past I used to put my hopes in it somehow as a way to balance out the books, implying and accepting that this system cannot be changed by me or us as it is too big and too convoluted by now for us to be able to straighten it out and must be overseen by someone with some Karma knowledge and rights about how to square things out, the key Karma one liner ‘what goes around comes around’ has proven incorrect, we can just take a look at some of our Elite,  politicians and their participation in supporting and legislating Death Supporting Profit based Deals and Laws, at those who are intentionally standing as the point of ‘Evil’ in the world to see how they thrive, how many privileges they have access to, to see that what is going around and has been going around is obviously coming around to someone else.

The last hope and delusion I used to hold about Karma, having noticed the inefficiency of it, was that maybe the books were squared after death, which could explain why so many people were suffering on the planet, they had been forced to come back and endure the short end of the stick. This belief was a big comfort, it allowed me to justify why some have to suffer while I could thrive and to delude myself about justice, that it did exist, maybe posthumous (which in latin means ‘after-earth’) but ultimately it did come.

There are many points here that are not as ‘enlightened’ as Karma supporters would like to believe, first the basic point of a Vendetta,  buried deep inside ourselves that’s what we hope Karma is, by wishing Karma on others, where each other is Self, we subject ourselves to our own karma, to have to repay for everything We have done that according to our own judgement as Gods of our Existence we have to now give back, square out, as we wish others to suffer for what they did, we condemn ourselves to suffer for what we did or believe we did as we believe others did, Equal and One.

Yes, because we have never intended Karma as a Law of Correction, where we see through our own suffering that life as we live it is unacceptable and we need to make a correction and let go of our limiting beliefs, ideas and opinions about existence that keep us in separation from the Whole to allow us as Life as everything that exists to express, instead we overlooked that point and made Karma the embodiment of our deepest desires and turned it into Existence pay back system.

But as we can clearly see, Karma like everything else, in the specific Good Karma has gone on sale.

If we intended Karma as the Law of consequence, with enough Money one can nowadays buy out the good consequence to any deed,  one can pollute the planet for profit, poison people for greed,  hide the cure of cancer to make sure to sell useless harmful drugs and keep getting the gigantic cancer research money that is made available every year, have someone murdered and maimed for fun, because anyway Good Karma, just like life, nowadays is for sale, the bigger the mis-deed the higher the Money figure required for the cover up and the shift of the bad Karma onto the ones who can’t buy their way out of consequences, due to their lack of Money.

Money can buy the best justice, the best media, the best marketing to make one’s lie become the truth, the best education to know how to sell the lie to everyone that will listen, witnesses, experts, everything is for sale, Karma is now equal to the Money you have to buy yourself the life you wish to live, and the Good Karma to make sure you can enjoy it, Karma is a figure, the higher the figure you have in your pocket, the Best Quality Karma you can get for yourself and your closed ones.

It’s impossible today to believe in the justice of Karma when children on this planet go through so much suffering, yes we tell ourselves “we see them as children’ but they are ‘old souls’, probably Jewish bankers from another life, and look at them now, hihi”, if we enforce our belief in Karma to the fullest we can even manage to enjoy the suffering of others, ‘it’s pay back time eh bastard’ and feel glad for the little we have, at least we are not in their dire (deserved) situation, another favourite is ‘we must have done something right’ (while they didn’t). All speculations, the truth of the matter is unknown, who started the rumour about this, who said that this is the reason some suffers and some thrive, why was this said if not to free the ones who have Money/Good Karma in their pocket ‘to feel good about themselves” while half of the world is in hell ?

Instead of seeing that everything is now ruled by the Money System that we accept and allow to rule over all of us having mistakenly made money the Capital that runs Capitals and the Capitalistic system, we make up stories intertwined with ‘religious mystical beliefs’ to justify why this system is the way it is and cannot change. Karma is just another one of our favourite excuses, better than many others, karma knowledge makes us spiritual, we take upon us the burden of accepting our good fortune in the face of the suffering ones, we take on this sacrifice within our Greater Understanding of the Whole, and an Under-Standing it is.

The irony is that the ones assumingly being held captive in poverty and misery by the “Karma System”, possibly, probably, have never even heard of Karma as their only one single-minded thought within every single day of their life is just ‘will I eat today ?’.

So, for me it was useful at one point to start to question this reality, to see on which foundations I had embraced this Karma belief, and to question myself about reality not being real but just a Game, to just in self honesty ask myself, really, why are things going the way they are, why is there suffering, what is going on ?

Because if and when we stop and look, the whole setup becomes senseless, this is why we keep our selves entertained, detained and distracted within entertainment, futile shows and celebrity gossips to divert our own attention from the system that deep down we can absolutely see, it’s demented, no matter which words politics keep using to show us how FREE we are through this ‘free system of free markets, free economics and free thinkers who are defending our freedom’ in truth the opposite is taking place in our face, an enslaving system where the only freedom we have is defined by how much money we have in our pockets,  we can make up stories in our minds but reality spells it out clearly and very honestly  “No money, No honey”, as it’s printed all in Capital letters on the tee shirts of the girls in Bangkok 🙂

I have given up my beliefs in Karma, first because Karma let me down, I saw no freaking lightening take over the House of Parliament in Italy or Greece recently when they stole money from the pensions of people who barely get to the end of the month, instead I see whole nations suffer, extensive inequality, people not eating for weeks while I debate on which fish I should pick or which diet to choose to shed the weight that I wish I could magically shift on the undernourished but I cannot, Karma forbids it, I have to fatten up and they have to starve, it’s written this way, I deserve it !

And then I saw as well that within karma I accept that inequality will be squared out by someone else and not by myself, I no longer accept this, I am karma-able to stand in and as the correction of myself for myself and All Life One and Equal, to correct myself of my own beliefs, ideas and opinions  in inequality that suited me, that made my life work for me instead of seeing that Life that is not working for everyone equally is not Life, that when I have that underlying feeling of existential malaise, I am just somewhere aware that I as one piece of the whole have enough but other parts of  me as Self as Life struggle with my permission and acceptance.

I am becoming accountable, I am developing  Self-Responsibility I can keep my own books, clear out my debts, stop the payable/receivable accounting system within me, stop the system of debt within and as me so that a New World may be born free of debt and Life may be the Self Expression in Oneness and Equality that it was always meant to be.

I have embraced an Equal Money System as myself, as the end of the debts, the vendettas, the let’s get even and the ‘you will pay for this’,  The Karma rule which was but a hiding of all these underlying suppressed desires, if Karma is the Law of Correction and I live in correction, I am the end of Karma as I stand in and as Breath as One and Equal to everything that exists.

Oneness and Equality is the key out of this mess, count me in, I stand accountable now, to change the world within and the world without One and Equal, I am One Vote for World Equality.

Stand up for a system of Equality and Accountability, where you count as the Change by being the Change that you want to see in the world.

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I have been listening to the Desteni Sex Educational MP3, I can only say WOW, I never found so many precise, detailed and on the spot (no pun intended) info on sex in my life, nothing has ever come close to this which should be mandatory education in school, since it ties in with everything including our creation of which, unfortunately, we still know very little, if we exclude each one personal speculations and explanations based on hear-say at best of how we came about and why.

I was raised a Catholic, boy oh boy do they mess us up with sex and their views and ideas about it, one puzzling thing was why God designed sex as a forbidden pleasure, like having a kid sitting in front of the soccer field while a game of his peers is going on and forbidding them to play, not cool. Was God…

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What has ‘marked you’ in your life? If you ask yourself this question you might come up with a memory, a moment in your life that ‘changed it all’ for you. Does that define who you are? Another answer would be having physical marks that could indicate the walk in time-space wherein our physical body starts to deteriorate according to the current experience of ‘getting older’ – does that define your current experience in any way? Marks are also qualifications, standards, requirements, symbols, representations, points of reference – setting up marks as goals can also be applied the same way, competing against ourselves. In essence, we could say they are imprints that we create and regard as a reminder of something, someone, identifying ourselves with a particular something/ someone for the sake of keeping track of ourselves.

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2012: A New Equality Monetary System for All Humanity

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When I first met Desteni I was overwhelmed by the information about our History and about how we came to find ourselves where we are today.

For a few months I was too busy reviewing my understanding of reality to be able to grasp the Equal Money System concept, I even wrote in on a Forum, sorry I just can’t get this yet and what  I meant was that while I could see clearly the Esperanto version of a New Economy there was no way I could get it, I was just too far from it, the gap between me and the Equal Money System was too wide.

The reasons were many, one was that I was a perfect product of this system, I was brainwashed and indoctrinated to make THIS system work, I had too much knowledge of business and Money to even be able to begin to comprehend alternatives that had no foundation on anything that I knew, pIus I was born in debt like everyone else, as this reality is built on all the past generation that came before us and left behind something to fix, a debt, to each other, to the planet, to themselves.

So the first things I had to do to close this gap was to self  for-give, it is interesting for me now to expand on this point, because until a few months ago I had troubles with this Self Forgiveness tool because even the self forgiveness of the system has been tainted and turned into a debt settling, a way to get something back from others, their respect, their trust, something that we have accepted and believed went wrong in our interactions and had to be fixed by others for-getting about our for-getting.

So it took me quite some Self for-giveness  to experience the giving, because this is all the point of it, it’s not for-getting, it’s for-giving, so one doesn’t know how it works until one applies it and gets the gift, and the gift is getting back pieces of ourselves that we have left behind and the more we return self back to self by giving through the for-giving the more the next step that comes out of this is my oh my I want to for-give everybody !

And this is what the Equal Money System is, The Equal Money System is  for-giveness in the physical, is a moment in time when we stop, breathe, realize all the abuses that have been perpetrated through our acceptances and allowances of a system of abuse, inside and outside Equal and One, in the name of greed for-getting about everyone else and we tell ourselves that it’s not cool, that we need a correction that we need to for-give to each other everything that we would like to receive

I gave up on the Universe and Source as well, the Universe is just another word for God, it’s an Idea that supports the abuses in the world that says it’s God’s will or the Universe will, we started with the Universe story when we saw that God wasn’t working but we were unable to let God go due to our extensive fear of existence, we dressed him up with the Fancy Universe clothes and called him by another name but have a look, the Universe is there supporting the abuse too, there isn’t much further to go to reach rock bottom so it’s pretty clear by now (except for the ones who have a ticket to board the ascension Merkaba or are waiting for aliens to jail the abusers – I’m not joking I have read this post from the Galactic Federation, they have sent out a petition for all the Galactic federation’s friends to sign to give them the power to jail the abusers- good luck with that- , or they are waiting for the end of the world), that there will be no intervention, WE HAVE BEEN THE ABUSERS we have to sort this mess out.

And on a last note about God and the Universe, if God/Universe picks and chooses among his children he is an abusive parent/source, should we care or just be happy that we get to be the favourite ?

I  was no longer happy to be favoured by God/The Universe, I was sick myself and with myself for the life I was living in separation from everything that exists, I longed to stop my own abuse of myself and others and to no longer see hungry people, beggars, homeless, violence, rapes, wars and when I finally I could get what the Money System we are talking about IS,  I was in awe.

Yes because in one single move we could address most of the planet problems, by giving access to everyone Equally to what the planet has given to us All, we could live in peace, we could stop fearing the future, we could have a life that is guaranteed to be as smooth as possible by the  new system that would be born by Life to support All Life Equally.

What are the drawbacks ? None, well none could be or have more than another because Equality is what the New Monetary System is all about it’s the physical realization of our Oneness and Equality, it’s a statement of Equal value granted to each living being, finally Money would be used not as a weapon but as a Life giving device.

There was never anything wrong with money, it was always US, it was our value system that was upside down, a system where we put things and profit before Life, it was bound to fail and crash like a castle of cards.

So, if you wish to understand the New Equality of the Equal Money System you have to start by for-giving yourself, because someone who is full of debts cannot understand the giving of the equality system because he/she has not yet started to give to himself/herself  Self back to Self.

And it’s only within the Equality of you that you can start to see and then you will be astonished and a bit ashamed at why on Earth we did not see this before, it’s so simple we just have to start to give to ourselves, so start your for-giveness today, give yourself back to yourself, because there simply needs to be more of yourself  Here to get it, to see and realize the solution as You.

Delete your debts through Self-forgiveness so that the world may delete its debts One and Equal to you and start anew in a system of for-giving instead than the current system of for-getting, where we forget the suffering of others that is nothing but the suffering of each one of us living in separation from ourselves and not Here as One as Equal as Life as Everything that Exists.

Join us, we are the future, do you already have a future ?

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2012: Jobless ? No worries, the Vatican is looking for Exorcists

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Today a very popular Italian weekly magazine titled the cover page ” Looking for Exorcists’ with a Priest making it to the cover page.

It’s been a long time since a Priest has been on the cover page of a magazine in Italy even when the talks were about pedophiles priests, the pictures was not allowed to be shown, for a form of ‘respect’ (for the priest).

So I found it interesting that it should be the Devil himself bringing back the priests into the Spotlight.

What’s going on ?

The cover article said that “Possessions” are on the increase, they count 500.000 people yearly asking for help to the Church with a 30% increase in the last 5 years between believers and NON believers, 20% of this numbers is made up by children, then 65% of women across all levels of wealth and education, having a degree is no longer a guarantee that you won’t be able to believe in the Devil, the Devil is everywhere, knows no social division, the Devil is Fair.

The men seem to handle the Devil better, they know they are the Devil themselves, they know what they think, how they debase women in their mind, how many times a day they think about fucking and abusing women they don’t even know or that are in a relationship with their friends and family members, it’s a ‘men thing’, amazingly it’s either a data that says men are more honest with themselves or they just bare the burden of their own thoughts words and actions better than women, children don’t count, they are dragged to exorcism due to non compliance, whenever their behaviour doesn’t fit ‘what they should be’ mum can blame it on the Devil and get the kids exorcised, the Catholic answer to Ritalin.

There are 300 active exorcists in Italy, many are old, they handle a maximum of 5000 cases a year but the waiting list gets longer every year, because one exorcism is never enough, some people may need exorcisms that last for years, it takes years sometimes to get the Devil to leave his prey alone :), this is why the University in Rome headed by Christ’s legionaires organizes every year a Master on Exorcism and Prayers to Freedom to form the new generations of Devil Busters priests. Doesn’t this make us question the power of God at the same time, that the Devil is obviously so superior he can decide to stay on for YEARS while some silly chanting and lating invocation is repeated ad nauseam to no effect ? If God was the Master of the Universe, one single All Powerful command from God & Associates and the Devil should retreat immediately overtaken by the Fear of God and leave with his tail between his legs. Doesn’t seem exorcisms are so effective after all, if you were going to a Dentist to pull out a tooth and he had you go back for years, how much trust would you have in him ? Does he really know what he is doing or is he just guessing ? Does he know his trade or is he just pretending ? Are we all just pretending ? Do we in fact Fear the Devil LESS than we fear ourselves and having to face what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become ?

And if the devil did exist, when he leaves a body, where does He go ? Is he defeated ? Seems hardly if exorcisms are on the increase, how many Devils are there ? Do they multiply ? Do they have children, baby devils that possess children ? Where do they live ?

Ever thought where is the Devil’s home if there should be one on Earth? Many did ask themselves this question and came to the obvious conclusion, WHERE WOULD YOU LIVE IF YOU WERE THE DEVIL ? If you were an Imaginary Polarity Figure representing the highest Evil in the World, wouldn’t you live where the Highest Imaginary Figure representing the Good of the World lived ?

Yes that’s right, inside the Vatican 🙂

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Father Malachi Martin knew for sure, he left the Jesuits at one point because the whole Good vs Evil battle was just too much, he could no longer bare it.

The Pope stayed on instead

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What would be Christmas without Satan..oops Santa ?

So the belief is that there is an Entity that dominates and controls us, The Evil Entity known as The Devil, Satan, Lucifer, that ‘makes us do evil stuff, that tempts us, that puts words in our mouths, plots in our heads, that wants us to struggle and suffer while he has a ball at our expenses.

The Devil is historically represented as the Serpent, the Serpent with the forked tongues, meaning what? Meaning a duality, which is what we all live. Movie series like Ally Mc Beal have been made to underline, expose and make ‘normal’ the secret voice that speaks non stop in our Minds, the secret voice that says nasty things while we show the good face, the secret voice that is keeping us busy up there in the head, and never Here, where Life really happens while we miss out on it by being away in the Hell we ourselves created in our Minds, wouldn’t be normal for people that spend so much time in Hell to believe in the Devil ?

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The only problem with this accepted and encouraged (by the Catholics) belief is that it makes us powerless, Yes, there is the advantage of the relief of having someone to blame, – fucking Devil, please God deliver me from him -, but what if the Devil was inside, what if this battle was already lost when we started engaging it, what if the Devil was the sum of all our judgements, ideas, beliefs and thoughts about good and evil that we have lived (opposite of Devil, how strange..) and breathed into existence, what if the Devil and God were Our Creation and not viceversa ?

Vittorio Feltri commented the exorcism article with this sentence:

“Literature has often documented the tough fight that each one of us puts up to not fall into the temptation to give in to Evil. Yes beltzebu’ is always scheming in the most secret places of our mind ready  to suggest the best way to trip someone, how to take a shortcut, how to trample someone’s rights on our quest for greed, how to be indifferent to the reasons of our hearts, cinical, cruel. It’s not true that the Devil possesses us, it’s us possessing the Devil and often we ask Him advises following them with pleasure, I have a suspect, what if WE were the Devil ? “

Yes, what if we were the Devil ? What if this world was the plain manifestation of our Polarity Play, what if this was the creation of our Sick Abusive Minds ?

Many have different theories about how this Creation came about, what if we had been lied to, conned into made up stories designed to never allow us to realize ourselves, what if someone knew how it all came about and has been out for some time to explain it but nobody listened because everyone was too lost inside their personality play and the Beliefs and Ideas of ‘Who they really Are (or wish to be)’ ?

You want to know who you really are ? Really ? Here is the whole story

How this Creation came about and Why

So if you think you are God without acting like one, or the Devil, or that you are possessed, support yourself to release yourself from your own Polarity design, you are the One with the Keys to your Mind, exorcise yourself back to Freedom into Equality and Oneness. Give yourself a Chance to Live again, Give Life back to Yourself.

Breathe yourself back to Earth.

For more information, support, Q&A regarding the process of giving back Yourself to Yourself as One and Equal with Existence visit

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